I’m alive

[CatsMeow]

I've tried to kill myself with SN two times. Both times I was a coward and didn't drink the whole mug. I'm sorry if i caused any trouble with my previous post. I don't want to make anyone try SN with this or latest post. I just want to say I've tried it, both times I survived without any permanent damage, I've just experienced sheer disappointment. Now it's been like a week yet I still can taste it in my mouth and it makes me feel sick. The last time I attempted I slept 17 hours straight from low oxygen. It's pure luck I'm alive honestly. I just hope you all well and that you live a good life

I wanted to die by june but I guess I'll die during july or august because I wont stop trying, sorry. Much love

 

[tonicer]

See you on the other side.

 

[FF777]

pretty much in any situation or method the SI (survival instinct) is always realer and stronger than people expect it to be.. some thing every one should be aware of..