Fear of failing

[Ijustwantpeace]

I want to use the nitrogen method. Its the one Im at peace with, but all I can think of is what if I fail and end up like this guy:

Mum's heartbreaking photos of son starved of oxygen after suicide attempt

'I hope that by sharing his story, I can encourage people to talk more about their mental health'

metro.co.uk

as someone with severe tinnitus thats my worst nightmare.

I know my family will be too selfish to put me down. So it seems like jumping off a cliff might have to be the only way, but I dont want to fucking do that. Fuck this shit world for not giving me the option to be put down.

edit* Just look at this. https://www.gofundme.com/f/mnhr77-jack-barnes-fund

£5000 worth of donations to keep him alive rather than put him down. Normies make me want to vomit.

 

[highlyvolatile]

If he hadnt been found i think he would have been successful. The most upsetting part about the article is this

"When Helen asks her son if he still wants to die, he blinks twice." (blinking twice means yes)

I can understand why the mom wants to keep her son alive but its been said a lot throughout the article that he wont have a quality of life and wont be able to do a lot. I cant possibly know the pain shes in but i can only think about how her son feels. And the gofundme is sad.