Does anyone want to die so someone will finally care?

[babyinmyuniverse]

Obviously this isn't the only reason I want to ctb, my life is a disaster and I struggle with chronic mental health conditions. I've wanted to do this for as long as I can remember but the latest push (I attempted last week) is so a specific person will finally care for me. Maybe in death I'll be perfect and I'll finally mean something to him.

 

[Largeletters]

No, not really... I've learned suicide is not a good way to make a statement or gain notoriety. However, I'm still sorry you're in this situation

 

[LastFlowers]

I want people to care while I'm alive, to me any "care" after I die would simply be out of a selfish desire to assuage guilt, or a performance to gain sympathy.
I would not be the one receiving said care, so to kill myself for that purpose-even ever so slightly-would seem pointless,
I understand the sentiment though, most people want others to give a damn, especially if they're wading through a living hell, knocking on death's door.

The thing is, if this person you speak of doesn't care now, they won't genuinely care ever, not just because you passed.
Any pain or misgivings they experience will be more in relation to themselves, not truly about you nor any affection toward you.
You see it all the time with those who attempt, their loved ones may get a jolt or a wake up call to pay attention or to get their priorities straight, but most of the time they drift backwards toward their previous nature, and the suicidal person is left to their own devices once again.

 

[goat]

No, and if I had people to care that would make the whole thing way more complicated.
I don't want for people to care, nobody will care, I'm peaceful like this :)

 

[xLosthopex]

Not my main reason but I totally get what you're saying, I do feel this way towards a few particular people from my past

 

[it's_all_a_game]

Everyone has ignored, insulted, and abused me while alive, so I doubt my death will change anything.

 

[Sans]

I can guarantee you that the people who never gave a flying fuck about you in life will only pretend to "care" after death in order to save face and not out of any genuine concern.

 

[Pookie]

Nope. They should've cared while I was alive. They should've told me they loved me while I was still alive. None of that will matter when I'm dead.

 

[Weary Soul]

No. There is no one in real life who cares now, and if they do care after I am gone then that says some pretty nasty things about their character.

Even if death made someone finally care, does it really matter as the one who dies will not be around to see it anyway?

 

[motel rooms]

the latest push (I attempted last week) is so a specific person will finally care for me. Maybe in death I'll be perfect and I'll finally mean something to him.

You do realize that you won't exist, so you won't be able to enjoy his love? You won't be perfect in death, you simply won't be

 

[Elysium Searcher]

Definitely no. I don't want to watch a few people again pretending like they care and then be forgotten for a long time/forever.

Do I want to die because of the horrific loneliness? Maybe it has some influence over my decision to CTB, but it's only a little part of the whole "Why I'm gonna CTB soon", and it's not the decisive reason for sure. But the last thing I want to witness is seeing them acting like they really care. I strongly believe that's even worse than being completely erased from society.

 

[Celerity]

Not a good reason, IMO, but I understand where you're coming from as I have had similar yearnings in the past. As others have mentioned, you won't be around to see anyone else's reaction to your death. More importantly, suicide should be for your sake and not anyone else's.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

No, if anything I want people to have less reason to care about me after I die because right now they're just wasting their efforts and hopefully I can communicate through my note that it was never worth caring about me.

 

[Celerity]

No, if anything I want people to have less reason to care about me after I die because right now they're just wasting their efforts and hopefully I can communicate through my note that it was never worth caring about me.

The list of people "wasting" their efforts is short, but same.

 

[babyinmyuniverse]

I think I worded this wrong and feel a little embarrassed now. This isn't my main reason just something that's been playing on my mind. Sorry.

 

[Pookie]

I think I worded this wrong and feel a little embarrassed now. This isn't my main reason just something that's been playing on my mind. Sorry.

Don't feel embarrassed and no reason to apologise, you're free to ask all sorts of questions on SS.

 

[Largeletters]

I think I worded this wrong and feel a little embarrassed now. This isn't my main reason just something that's been playing on my mind. Sorry.

Don't be embarrassed, we all feel many things and you aren't the only one.

 

[loopylou]

They won't care about me after I'm gone. But a token cry at the funeral may appear they ever gave a shit!

 

[Meditation guide]

If they don't care about you while you're alive why would they care if you die? And you won't be here to see them even if they do care. This wouldn't be a reason I would ctb.

 

[Bigpink]

Not for me, I just wanna go

 

[N2Narcosis]

I like to think people will care if I die. That said, if they didn't care while I was alive they won't care when I die. If I'm being honest it's not such a terrible thing for me to have so few who care about me, as I'm less burdened by the guilt of causing them pain.

 

[FuneralCry]

I want to die to end my own pain really. It doesn't matter to me how others act after I die as I simply wont be here anymore, I won't be there to experience it. I think many people who didn't care when you were alive simply pretend to after you have died.