do you have a supportive mother?

[NothingElseMatters]

a mother that wants to solve all your proble,s that's always with you, present, involved and helpful. do you think having someone like that would lessen your urge to suicide?

 

[ClownMe]

Sadly, mine is the polar opposite, she actively wants me to kill myself.

 

[enau]

omg no i never had .i dont know if in the damaged state i experiment now, it will change anything( i think no).With someone supportive as you describe, i will still be in deep pain, il wll have to live with that...wiuth no desire for nothing to compensate.But in the first place, yea family messed up their job like for a lot of people here, and if i had loved ones and a caring family, and after that if i were able to create these kind of relathionship, yes, it could have been, or guide me and helped to cope with life..Even though I am deeply suicidal by nature, I have strongly felt the absence of a person who accompanies you with at least kindness. But now that I'm broken, she could only accompany me to my grave.

 

[Deleted member 8975]

My mother supports me financially and that's all :/

I wish…if she weren't so religious brainwashed maybe…and abused from her own life. Maybe….maybe things could have been different.

 

[fox_wannabe]

I think my mom messed up in first few years of my life and rest of it she tried to compensate for that.

 

[Lauralyn]

Depends on what I'm going through. She's helping me out now and sending me stuff here and there. Didn't help me at all when I was going through psychosis and scared. Wasnt getting my needs met at all during that just giving me more reasons to be scared. Lots of anger she's sweet now.

 

[domedune]

My mom is not very supportive, nurturing, anything... I hate when she touches me and I don't like being around her. I'm thinking about cutting her out of my life but I can only do that if I cut off one side of my family. Not sure yet.

 

[motel rooms]

My mother was an incredibly sick woman. She hated me because my pedophile father was "in love with" me & not her. She convinced herself that a toddler had seduced her fucking husband. She was a drunk, of course. They both were.

 

[Shadowplay]

No.

 

[OrcWitch]

Have not physically seen her since 2015, have not spoke since 2016.

I think having a normal mommy would help me yes.

 

[UnemployedMD]

My parents are both very supportive, but I have siblings that would be happy if I ctbed. A lot of my reasons for wanting to ctb are routed indirectly to issues revolving around my family: so I don't how much having a supportive mother has helped me since I otherwise may have not grown up into someone who wants to die had I been raised differently.

 

[Neurodoom]

My mom has been dead for almost ten years. When she was alive, she showed great distress when she discovered my new "coping skills," self-harm. I remember actually feeling some mixed emotion of remorse. I didn't want her to feel like it was her fault I was becoming an anguished person. Even if it was in hindsight. Maybe she knew it deep down and felt immeasurable guilt. I have very blurry memories of her long heartfelt rants of why I was worthwhile and how I needed to stay alive; at least longer than her. I guess I accomplished that. I'm partially convinced that if she was alive still maybe I'd be in a better state mentally but I have my doubts, given she was suffering from alcoholism and depression herself.

 

[Laddydragon]

No she abused me in everyway but sexual and I don't know how to even deal with it I honestly didn't see it till I left home and then everyone came and told me how bad she was like? Couldn't you of stopped this stuff I guess not..

 

[Bone]

no, though she fancies herself one. was controlling emotionally abusive alcoholic narcissist that is largely responsible for my mental illness now.

 

[plough22]

Yes I am lucky, I have a great loving Mam (and Dad)
I wish I was not such a burden to them in the last few years.

 

[Makko]

I never saw my parents as anything other than overpriced airport vending machines. Insert ass kissing, collect food and shelter. You don't buy anything at an airport when you have options.

 

[ratpudding]

My mom is a narcissist. Everything she did for me was so other people would view her as a good mom. She was also neglectful. When she got custody of me when I was 12 and terrified of being left alone the first thing she did was leave for 3 weeks to see her boyfriend and left me home alone.

I stopped viewing her as a mother when I was 19 and she had me put in a psych hospital saying I was threatening to kill her and got an injunction against me so I couldnt go home. I have severe trauma with being hospitalized like that due to my dad which she knows, and when we went to courth for the injunction (she had to drive me as I don't drive) she told the judge I never threatened her. She admitted to traumatizing me for attention,

I haven't talked to her since 2018 and I don't plan on talking to her ever again

 

[irememberinnocence]

No I don't have a supportive mother. I think if I did I would feel less desire to CBT. I'm physically disabled and find that society is not very accommodating. Plus I'm constantly walking an financial tight rope. And I have harsh emotional struggles from bullying and trauma. A supportive mother would probably help at least a bit with all these aspects. But I can't magic one out of thin air.

 

[Akerblad]

if she could, surely she would, but she is depressed too, and we don't live together

 

[Jumping_realms]

She is semi-supportive of my mental health because she sees the severity. I've had serious attempts, 2 left me on an intubator a few days and 1 I was in a coma for 16 days, then had to relearn speech, movement etc., in a rehab for months. She certainly doesn't want me to die.

She's too illogical and deluded. She puts everything in the hands of a "god" that has never done a fucking thing while we were all abused severely. Me and my brother were accidents while they were 16 and 17 with nowhere to go. In little time, neither family wanted anything to do with us, due to my father's criminal history, severe alcoholism and abuse. She stayed with that man for 19 years. All she had to do was leave early on, within the first year or two( abortion would have been better). It didn't matter if we started from a crisis center or women and children shelter. It would have been leaps and bounds better. We were staying in motel supply closets at night as kids and all because they had 0 money and kids. Also stayed in a broken down car that didn't move for weeks until repaired. This is a family with two kids entering school. It was just my mother and us two young kids in a car in a lot, unable to go anywhere and a father who just drank and was absent from us 75% of the time. Anything could have happened with a stranded 23 year old with 2 kids, while my "dad" was at the bar or staying with different friends or women every night. No job. I remember she would have to change the prices on clothes from thrift stores and good will for us.Just to save even $1. Then we had to walk blocks and stand in the long cold line waiting for government food. There are many who have had it way worse. I was never sexually abused, but just about any other type of abuse, mainly psychological, but tons of physical was going on. Hardest part wasn't me being hit and beat on, it was seeing my brother and mom get beat.

She also simply tells me "I don't understand what you are doing", about my sexuality.
For someone to be 62 years old in 2021 and think people "choose" sexuality is absolutely absurd to me. I guess that's religion for you, I was just 1 of many that fell victim to it, due to other's delusional beliefs.

 

[Feeding Pigeons]

I'm so sorry everyone here has such problematic mothers. I'm the odd man out. I have a supportive mother, I love her very much, but unfortunately it does little in the way of my suicidality.

 

[OnlyTheWind]

Eh, I guess. But she freely admits that there is nothing that she can do to help me.

 

[hʚll]

my mum is like that. but she says many religious stuff like i will go to hell if i ctb etc although she wants to help me. but im hopeless and my problem is with existence itself.

 

[Akerblad]

my mother suffers depression too and it's really heartbreaking watch her suffering and be unabled to do something for she,

 

[fred1]

a mother that wants to solve all your proble,s that's always with you, present, involved and helpful. do you think having someone like that would lessen your urge to suicide?

Well I thought I was a good mother but the night a few weeks ago my son came in drunk and I told him off again then he went off and hung himself in his bedroom so me and his dad would fine him! I would do anything for my son and we was very close but he had enough of me moaning at him when he came in drunk so the answer to your question is no I don't think it makes any difference x

 

[ChobaniFlipSmores]

Nope, they died from cancer.

 

[Littlepaws]

Hell no. Throughout my entire life she has emotionally and physically abused me. She even tried to smother me when I was younger and she is manipulative as fuck.

Sadly, my father has never been in the picture and she has gone to great lengths to keep me from ever contacting him. But of course, she's allowed to speak with him.

 

[mentalhealthfighter]

I love my mom too much and that's the problem. That's why I cant CTB. I'm probably stuck here until my mom dies.

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, I do have a good relationship with my mother. However she would never accept and understand my decision to ctb, which is why I choose to keep everything to myself. I could never stay alive for others and it would be selfish for them to expect me to suffer for decades.

 

[devin44]

My mother is an absolute angel!