Venting Hello and Goodbye?

[jupiterdeadstar]

This is just a somewhat silly presentation... I'm Jupiter (it's a nickname, so there's no real information)

I had a difficult childhood, absent father, cold mother, violent paternal family. Various types of abuse... I think I've been wanting to do this for more than half my life and I really feel like I'm ready. In my life, I only had one partner (and many abusers) it was short-lived, it was beautiful but painful.

I have undiagnosed Dystonia (thank you that my mother did not let me continue my medical treatment). I also believe that I have traits of Borderline Personality Disorder, this is what my former Spicology said. and the truth is that I want to live, but I don't do anything to do it. I don't make an effort, I don't study, I can't get a job.

So I'm just going to die. It's something I naturally admitted, that I'm going to die of my own choosing, so today I plan to jump off a ravine, I don't know how tall it is but I know it's tall enough to do it.

so if I write again it's because I was a coward, once again... but hey, at least I didn't get back with my ex (note that I like to make jokes about my traumas).

But really... I feel like I'm ready already, I have nothing ahead of me and I no longer want to fight. So I wish you all the best.

Sincerely: Jupiter <3

 

[bl33ding_heart]

I hope you find peace from your pain in some way or another.

 

[darksouls]

good luck,
I hope everything goes well for you and you find the peace you desire