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CTB at a young age

Nymph

Nymph

he/him
Jul 15, 2020
2,561
I don't feel like continuing this horrible life, I don't want to be here anymore and I've been thinking about CTBing more and more. I hate everything about my body, my personality, mental health and just everything. Even though Im 18 I don't think it will get better. I don't have the will to get better and do something. I never wanted to be born, no one asked me. I wish for eternal sleep
 
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falloutcarter13

falloutcarter13

Bury me, bury me...
Aug 1, 2020
671
I feel really awkward even saying anything here, just because you are so young, even though you're legally an adult. I don't even know how I feel about my own life, if I'd rather have ctb when I was 18 or made it as long as I have. There's always a *chance* things get better, I mean I saw and did a lot of shit and had plenty of chances in the years since I was your age. I would recommend off-the-cuff that you give life a chance, but then again I don't know you or your situation. All I can say for sure is I'm sorry you have to feel this way =(
 
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Deardaddy

Deardaddy

Student
May 20, 2019
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Idk what to say since you are 18. Life went downhill for me when I'm 30+. Kind of like 8!yes of pain . Not everyone the same , maybe u become some famous person
 
Nymph

Nymph

he/him
Jul 15, 2020
2,561
I know things could get better but I'm such a worthless case because I literally don't even want to finish my studies, I hate school so much and I hate work. Everyday the same thing all over again and again until I die. I don't want to do this. I hate humanity. Literally every problem that happens in the world is weighing on my shoulders and makes me want to CTB even more, humanity disgusts me and i don't want to see more problems the future holds.
 
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Deardaddy

Deardaddy

Student
May 20, 2019
172
Illias said:
I know things could get better but I'm such a worthless case because I literally don't even want to finish my studies, I hate school so much and I hate work. Everyday the same thing all over again and again until I die. I don't want to do this. I hate humanity. Literally every problem that happens in the world is weighing on my shoulders and makes me want to CTB even more, humanity disgusts me and i don't want to see more problems the future holds.
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There are lots of things waiting for you. New things yet explored . I'm not pro live just stating what I feel boy
 
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