Catching the bus is one of the few things that i have full control over

[LastDayOnEarth]

Life ain't what you make it, life is about the luck of the draw

In my case I didn't get the best deck of cards and there's so much that's out of our control in life

But at least catching the bus is the one thing that will give us some control back

 

[kagebunshin]

I agree. The only thing the modern person has any true agency over anymore is their own death. When I attempted last year, I felt like I was saying a big "fuck you" to the forces of modernity that chain us down. Suicide is liberating.

 

[TheVanishingPoint]

I agree with almost everything you wrote — especially the part where you say that life isn't something we shape, but a lottery of birth, often a trap.
But I have to disagree on one point:
suicide is not truly the "one choice we have control over."

It may seem that way — and I understand why — but that's an illusion.
Even this choice is deeply conditioned.
By mental mechanisms, fear, ingrained instincts, upbringing, social norms, moral guilt, trauma, cultural programming.
We don't live in a neutral space where we can freely decide to leave.
We live inside a system of brakes, both internal and external, designed specifically to make sure we don't choose.

If that choice were really free — if we had genuine control over it —
we'd see funerals every single day.
Not because people are "weak," but because many — maybe countless — don't actually want to stay,
they simply can't leave.

And maybe even you, the author of this post, wouldn't be here writing it —
if that choice were truly free.
Because the truth is: even "catching the bus" means breaking through layers of resistance built to stop us.

 

[FuneralCry]

It really is so cruel and dreadful to me how there's all this suffering in existing with no limit as to how much one can suffer, I imagine it must be a relief having the choice of when to cease existing as all I want is to never suffer ever again, I always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like falling into an eternal, dreamless sleep.