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Kain10th

Member
May 7, 2020
99
My brain keeps going and bringing up all the horrible things in my past, all the missed opportunities. I feel like a prisoner being held against my will by it.

anyone else feel similar?
 
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BPD Barbie

BPD Barbie

Visionary
Dec 1, 2019
2,359
Very much so, especially at night when trying to sleep. I just get stuck in an infinite loop of failure, heartache and pain.
 
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blivogade

blivogade

Member
Nov 7, 2019
88
Wouldn't that be ideal.
Hence why sleep is the only peace.
 
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pete_x

Good god, let's eat !
May 9, 2020
340
Actually no, which is kind of surprising me. From seeing ghosts to army's of floating disembodied heads etc., in spite of my plans, no. Which i'm not really understanding right now. Good question.
 
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nobiuobi

Member
Apr 28, 2020
22
I'm an over-analytical person by nature which I think stems from my self-conscientiousness. I feel like I'm always being judged by others but I'm very judgemental too, I just internalize it. I keep remembering awkward things that happened over ten years ago and it makes me cringe almost to the point of madness.
 
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Nem

Nem

Drs suck mega ass!
Sep 3, 2018
1,489
Holy fuck, my brain magnifies my mistakes and regrets and I'm tortured 24/7 constantly
Peace/hugs
 
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Polly

Specialist
Jan 15, 2020
309
Yes why it's time to go
 
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Erase.myself

Erase.myself

My body is a prison
Jan 4, 2020
198
Yes. My mind is a prison. As is my body.
Thankfully my mind will turn off tomorrow.
 
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theguineapigking

theguineapigking

Useless piece of trash
Dec 5, 2019
593
Hell yeah!!! If you mean permanently, then HHHHHEEELLLLLLL YEAHHHHH!!
 
Bct

Bct

Disqualified from Being Human
Apr 20, 2020
419
Me too, it's really sucks, especially since I have a hard time to get asleep yet it's very easy to wake up and can't sleep again
 
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woxihuanni

Illuminated
Aug 19, 2019
3,298
I shut it off just fine, without drugs or anything. Mostly it's when I've just woken up that the realisation hits that everything is shit and I have to die, even though I'd love to live.
 
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SleeplessSoul

SleeplessSoul

Student
Apr 10, 2020
131
Definitely! I used to get a breather sometimes when I would go to the theatre but I don't even get that anymore.
 
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dmsdnd18

Member
Sep 26, 2019
48
All I do is live in my head.. the past makes me depressed, the future makes me anxious. It's killing me
 
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MissKatrina

Experienced
Apr 6, 2020
258
Shut off brain and heart I am all for. :)
 

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