Anyone else past their time?

[itsgone2]

I was holding on for a few reasons but they are now in the past. I'm at least a month past my ideal date.
Anyone else perpetually stuck?
I feel like a joke is being played on me.
There's no reason for being here. I dry fire my gun. Load and unload. Get careless and pull the trigger. Still here and absolutely pissed about it

 

[tonicer]

I should have died ages ago. I am now 43 but when i was around 14 i wanted to lay my neck on the train tracks and get decapitated (I'm in Germany so sadly no easy access to guns) but i didn't do it because i just can't bring myself to hurt my mother. She loves me with all her heart and it would be a great crime to make her bury me. So i postponed my suicide at least until after her passing. She's almost 80 and she maybe has 10-15 more years ahead of her. I waited 30 years how hard can 10-15 more be? I have to make it, for her.

 

[itsgone2]

I waited 30 years how hard can 10-15 more be? I have to make it, for her.

Amazing. I don't know how you hold on. Life has always been a miserable burden for me and I just desperately want out.