Anyone else scared of the future?

[UtopianSoliloquies]

I feel you. I'm currently 20 and studying computer science at an okay university. As you can imagine, the job prospects are completely shit, and any opportunities left are mainly just interfacing with the AI slop machine which isn't at all preferable to CTB. 20 years is relatively young but still I've had plenty of time to be good at something, to find something I care about, and I have failed pretty miserably. Despite my somewhat privileged economic circumstances, I've never known what it is like to have a future. Not in the sense that I could do a meaningful job that actually helps people, and not in the sense that I have something to look forward to. Even if I continued as a parasite who lives with my parents indefinitely, I would have nothing valuable or enjoyable to do with my time. The one thing stopping me from CTB is my girlfriend, she's always been so good to me and I'd like to think I've done my best for her too. I have obligations to her no matter how much I don't want this life for myself. Though, I suppose that if I want to CTB because I think my future is shit, there isn't too much harm in waiting for that miserable potentiality to actually become the present before I kill myself.

 

[iguazo falls]

im 20 and have a full time work,. bc of stupid "trainee" bs i get paid below minimum wage despite doing most of the role description i fucking hate it. i just got grilled in front of everyone in a pasisve aggressive way for making the dude whos been here for whatever many years bad for mistakes i did in my first month. i moved out on my own and idk like even i am lucky cause if my parents were more shit then i cant have moved out, i know ppl my age where their parents want them out of the house but take their money even if they dont need it. when these things come u will never feel ready or grown up enough. i feel like im just tired and constantly stressed and feel like im 40 so im not excited to actually be 40 the same way i wasnt excited to be 20 at 15. to me this is just some shit transit phase where i wait, get paid more, pay for shit, then gtfo in a caravan. or i ctb first. u can only rly take life one day at a time. i feel really resentful of old people who say they holidayed around in their 20s in europe or some shit or have had all these crazy fun stories cuz i am asleep by 8pm. then they tell me "thats the way it is" like fuck off i write instructables for my friends on how to move out and properly apply for jobs and u just tell me this bs after raving in the 90s.

 

[houseofleaves]

I am a 19 yo male and the reason I'm going to CTB is to avoid the future entirely. Honestly, aging and responsibility just sounds like it'll really suck so I'd rather just get it over with and die now than extend my life doing things that I don't even want to do. I don't have any aspirations in life and I don't want to lose my current hobbies and interests all because of these changes that'll continue as I get older. Does anyone else feel a similar way?

Super ashamed to admit it but yeah i feel the same way. Although I'm in my thirties and for my age this is embarrassing

 

[Bitter Almonds]

Yes. I'm 38 and I'm terrified of how things may turn out.

 

[tiramisu]

i'm not scared of the future because i won't have one.

 

[thekop85]

I truly empathize with you.
Every time I go to bed, I'm so worried and dread the moment I'll open my eyes again.
All I want is to feel at ease as soon as possible.

 

[ZeroRedz02]

I truly empathize with you.
Every time I go to bed, I'm so worried and dread the moment I'll open my eyes again.
All I want is to feel at ease as soon as possible.

I love the fact that every day is a possibility to not wake up again forever, but how low are the chances really?

 

[thekop85]

I love the fact that every day is a possibility to not wake up again forever, but how low are the chances really?

I, too, always hope for such a miracle with all my heart.
But I've found that such things don't happen just because you want them to.

 

[dandayooo]

My suicidal ideation started when I was 17 because I was afraid of the future. School was such a bad experience to me and people kept saying that school is actually the easiest period of life... I'm 24 now and I basically spent the last 6 years avoiding the adult experience, by being a NEET. Not a good thing to do; I could already have a college degree at this point. So yeah, I get it.

 

[nails]

i genuinely do not see myself existing in a future that is not miserable. i'm lucky and privileged in the sense that i work, can go back to uni, etc. but that isn't really enough.
the only careers i found myself even remotely interested in just weren't feasible. i suppose i could just keep working towards them and hope that something works out. it very likely would never work out, but i would still try if i had any other reason to live. i'm cooked now. i no longer have these aspirations, anyway. i don't think my anhedonia will go away. i don't want to do anything anymore.
my entire being, my brain, my social life are all beyond help and i just can't live with these problems, even if i somehow obtained the career i desired or something. so, in my eyes, i have no future and one of my biggest fears is continuing to exist to see this play out. things just get worse with time and i don't want to deal with any of it. my stomach turns when i remember that i will have to live with this loneliness, anhedonia, and other bullshit for years to come if i don't ctb soon. i do not want to see the future.
where i am at right now is my set end point, i think. things will be like this forever, this is it. i'd rather not do this anymore because this is a dreadful and empty existence.

 

[LongJacks]

Immensely terrified because all I have known was some disastrous fucker who tries to ruin my life entirely, I dealt with many abusers and I don't want another one, besides this everything else is enough reason (Desensitisation, mental illnesses, debt, problems, prices going up, etc etc) besides this I might end up homeless if mh only hope of living doesn't go well and even the other route being ctb it's so hard to do :(

I wish I could close my eyes and everything ends already

The 2020's are the worst decade ever everything is dull and shitty xD

 

[Aflame5926]

30+ scared on how everything is going to manifest. AI slop is getting worser while widely adopted. the economie keep taxing more and more because of wars.

because of tax in general lots of thing are getting ridiclous to buy anymore.

if you are disabled i feel like you better of to die. guidance living will just take all the money and you can't even built anything up.

there is just no room to own a place for yourself and take care of yourself anymore.

we got a issue with people themselves with norms and value

is just 1 big ass clusterfuck with clowns deciding things they dont even fully understand