anyone else struggle with substance abuse

[puppyboy]

i'm just curious if anyone else on here has a problem with alcohol/drugs. i've been struggling with substances since i was a teen lol ive tried everything i could get my hands on, i mainly like pills/smoking weed.. i don't use every day but i do use pretty regularly. been taking adderall more frequently, but xanax is kinda the love of my life rn …

i never thought i'd become dependent on anything tbh, but my life is so shit, it feels like the only thing i can turn to. i cannot imagine a life where im sober lmao.

 

[Kokonoe]

yes. admittedly not majorly. the drug i abused wasn't that harmful so it feels hard to say i abused substances even though i guess it's technically true. but i do still struggle to stop myself sometimes. and lately it feels like the only way to get through the day is abusing some sort of substance all the time. alcohol, weed, prescription drugs, whatever i have all at once. i feel like i'm at the top of a slippery slope with it. but i don't know if i even really care anymore.

 

[bluupup]

i'm just curious if anyone else on here has a problem with alcohol/drugs. i've been struggling with substances since i was a teen lol ive tried everything i could get my hands on, i mainly like pills/smoking weed.. i don't use every day but i do use pretty regularly. been taking adderall more frequently, but xanax is kinda the love of my life rn …

i never thought i'd become dependent on anything tbh, but my life is so shit, it feels like the only thing i can turn to. i cannot imagine a life where im sober lmao.

TLDR for my message: I used to do harder drugs and now I'm sober and I get u <3
when I was a freshman, I took 2 xans and I felt like nothing special happened, it really just made me not shake my leg. also, yeah, I get your issues man. I have them too. right now I'm California sober, sadly. I just have a crazy vape addiction, I smoke cigars and cigarettes, and I drink. back in the day though, I was on 90mg of oxycodone in algebra, haha. it was bad, I actually punched someone in the face because they told me to go sober. I quit finally, but at this current moment of my life, I would never turn down drugs if I got offered them. I'd do anything right now. I understand you and you're not alone.

 

[gardenhouse]

Because of tinnitus which is loud and debilitating, I can't sleep, i rely on benzo to sleep which sucks because unnatural sleep-just makes you black out, you don't feel refreshed when you wake up and you don't dream, you just black out, i wish nembutal barbiturate as sleeping pill was still around

 

[puppyboy]

TLDR for my message: I used to do harder drugs and now I'm sober and I get u <3
when I was a freshman, I took 2 xans and I felt like nothing special happened, it really just made me not shake my leg. also, yeah, I get your issues man. I have them too. right now I'm California sober, sadly. I just have a crazy vape addiction, I smoke cigars and cigarettes, and I drink. back in the day though, I was on 90mg of oxycodone in algebra, haha. it was bad, I actually punched someone in the face because they told me to go sober. I quit finally, but at this current moment of my life, I would never turn down drugs if I got offered them. I'd do anything right now. I understand you and you're not alone.

lol yeahh i feel you, thank you man, it's so hard for me to imagine my life completely sober from anything. ive lost a couple of friends cuz of it. admittedly i dont really drink bc my body just rejects it every time, but i will literally pop any pill in sight for me i really like xanax/benzos because it feels like i'm skipping time fr, i take waay too much of it whenever i need time to pass faster or my anxiety is getting to me

 

[boilingfishcakes]

i really like xanax/benzos because it feels like i'm skipping time fr

Same! Xanax just keeps me from thinking. When I lived in Korea it was stupid easy and cheap to get, but now that I am back in the states I just went back to weed. Keeps me from thinking or feeling too much.

 

[puppyboy]

Same! Xanax just keeps me from thinking. When I lived in Korea it was stupid easy and cheap to get, but now that I am back in the states I just went back to weed. Keeps me from thinking or feeling too much.

its just so unfortunate we have to do these things just to silence our minds </3

 

[bluupup]

lol yeahh i feel you, thank you man, it's so hard for me to imagine my life completely sober from anything. ive lost a couple of friends cuz of it. admittedly i dont really drink bc my body just rejects it every time, but i will literally pop any pill in sight for me i really like xanax/benzos because it feels like i'm skipping time fr, i take waay too much of it whenever i need time to pass faster or my anxiety is getting to me

that's real ngl, I'm never going fully sober and I am not ashamed. vaping is honestly an ok thing to me, I'll be vaping at 40 years old lol. I hate benzos bruh they don't do anything to me. I think I might just need a Xanax prescription for its actual purpose

 

[thelostautistic]

I've had an unhealthy relationship with alcohol since 2021. I used to drink and then put myself in dangerous situations very often. I don't risk take anymore but the drinking is still a bit of an issue. I could go long periods of time without it and then go back to drinking frequently when my mental health got worse. It was a cycle for years. I spent almost every day from last summer up until March or April this year drinking each evening. I literally craved alcohol everyday and relied on it. I felt so gross and put on quite a bit of weight from all this. I haven't cut it out completely but I'm not drinking daily right now which is good. My problem is that alcohol makes me feel less autistic and I love that. It's a temporary escape from that hell.

 

[Badatlove]

I am a big time addict with bpd so its a killing combo.
I am clean of weed now a month. Only quit because I can't afford it anymore.

I am still addicted to kratom and lie in NA about it I love kratom too much. Doctors won't prescribe me anything and I dont like anti depressants. I need something to self medicate if doctors won't help me and I try it all the time but I cant stay sober..

I quit alcohol it hurts my body too much.
For stimulants I feel to sad it makes me too paranoid.
I also still smoke sigarettes

 

[carfemtanyl]

yes, mainly opioids like fent and also benzos to numb myself so I can function

 

[Higurashi415]

Alcohol, weed, cocaine. I sort of cycle them, like I routinely stop taking either one of those at any given time. I hardly ever take all 3 of those in the same period, it's always only 2 of them or just 1. I'd like to get back to smoking cigs but, as weird as that sounds, I find cigs really hard to quit and regularly quitting is part of my strategy :(

 

[nettspend]

I am two weeks clean from heroin & benzos.

I miss it every second, but it really isn't worth it in the long run. Alcohol and drugs took everything from me. Before my use escalated I was an in shape medical student with my own apartment, friends and a wonderful girlfriend. I had hobbies, goals, ambitions. In less than a year, I lost everything. Today I'm two attempts deep, utterly lonely, broke, living with family and have dropped out of school.

It really is an evil downward spiral, because at this point why the fuck shouldn't I go get some dope? I have nothing to lose. I am a nobody. Might as well give up and let it consume me, and die in some ditch with a needle in my arm.

Despite losing everything, despite fucking over everyone in my life, despite just recently having gone through horrible, gut-wrenching withdrawals, I would still not hesitate whatsoever to shoot up if I was handed a needle right now. It really is an illness. A really fucking toxic relationship, because despite everything, I still love heroin.

 

[ravendrops]

Was able to kick the habit of drinking but THC feels therapeutic to my cPTSD in a way alcohol never was. But I can't do that right now as I'm broke and in a homeless shelter.

Was able to kick the habit of drinking but THC feels therapeutic to my cPTSD in a way alcohol never was. But I can't do that right now as I'm broke and in a homeless shelter.

So I'm clean right now

 

[Higurashi415]

I am two weeks clean from heroin & benzos.

I miss it every second, but it really isn't worth it in the long run. Alcohol and drugs took everything from me. Before my use escalated I was an in shape medical student with my own apartment, friends and a wonderful girlfriend. I had hobbies, goals, ambitions. In less than a year, I lost everything. Today I'm two attempts deep, utterly lonely, broke, living with family and have dropped out of school.

It really is an evil downward spiral, because at this point why the fuck shouldn't I go get some dope? I have nothing to lose. I am a nobody. Might as well give up and let it consume me, and die in some ditch with a needle in my arm.

Despite losing everything, despite fucking over everyone in my life, despite just recently having gone through horrible, gut-wrenching withdrawals, I would still not hesitate whatsoever to shoot up if I was handed a needle right now. It really is an illness. A really fucking toxic relationship, because despite everything, I still love heroin.

Wow. We all underestimate how fast things can go downhill, don't we? Massive props for your sobriety and good luck my friend.

 

[glassskin]

Alcohol, weed, cocaine. I sort of cycle them, like I routinely stop taking either one of those at any given time. I hardly ever take all 3 of those in the same period, it's always only 2 of them or just 1. I'd like to get back to smoking cigs but, as weird as that sounds, I find cigs really hard to quit and regularly quitting is part of my strategy :(

lol same. i cycle alcohol, weed and nicotine so i don't get addicted. cocaine too expensive, but i agree it's amazing. great minds think alike lol
optimum coping strat because antidepressants don't do shit tbh.

 

[Higurashi415]

lol same. i cycle alcohol, weed and nicotine so i don't get addicted. cocaine too expensive, but i agree it's amazing. great minds think alike lol
optimum coping strat because antidepressants don't do shit tbh.

Oh they definitely do shit. They make me numb, sleepy and, scariest of all, they make me ok with having a shit life. Also yeah cocaine is hella expensive, I'll probably switch to a different stimulant in a couple months hehe. I've been told there's lots of better stimulants, people do cocaine only because of its cultural relevance and ease of access. Let's hope it's true lol

(YMMV of course, I don't want to discourage anyone from trying anti depressants, they work for tons of people and to anyone reading if you haven't tried them yet do, by all means)