Venting Anybody else who cannot live and cannot die?

[Black wizard]

I want to ctb every single day but when I plan it all out I just start crying endlessly. I love my family even if they don't care about me and I don't want to leave them or hurt them even though death is objectively the right thing for me. I am stuck between life and death. I am not living but I am afraid I cannot die either. Does anybody else feel this way?

 

[nowhere123]

I feel the same, I'm trapped in these feelings every day.

 

[deadpornstarr!]

there's still this bit of hope in me that things are going to get better , and that i really should stay around to see that , but a lot of the time i really just wish it would go away already . the things its dragging me through are too painful most of the time .

im just kind of exhausted . it sucks

 

[Jamylap]

i live exactly the same... i cry everyday and i smile all day but since i am alone i start sh or crying, and i don't manage to open up to my psychologist... i have to talk but my friends have their own problems... and can't die but i can't live like this anymore... you know, i would juste like to pause my life... it would be great, you see, nothing during a time... and dying is the best way, but i can't because of the people who love me it is soooo difficult to take a decision !!