Venting Afraid and result is just around the corner.

[Littlewittlelight]

So my uni result is about to be announced in a couple days I am so afraid I wasn't able to focus I don't really know if I would be able to do it. I have a bad feeling because I was so fucked up while writing the exam. I am so afraid and if I fail this time then I will end up with no place or bear with this dirty environment. This is really my last hope. I didn't even mean to live for some time but I had to wait for it. So many basic things were taken from me by God. No human did it but I think to myself why normal things were taken from me that only leaves god to question and I couldn't see God. I am not religious but I have prayed in fear sometimes I prayed when I broke into tears and felt gof would see me. I was not religious but I just have to live in fear and curse my fate. I don't know how I am going to get through next two days I was cutting I just had something happen to me and it was too my mistake I just keep punishing myself and getting belittled and I feel someone is humiliating me even when they have good intentions I am just waiting I am trying to sleep it off.

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds stressful and tiring what you are going through. This life really can be so cruel as things can easily get worse causing us to suffer more. I wish you relief.