Help Advice to Stage Drinking As an Accident

[wanttogetonthebus]

I own both N and SN, and want to attempt with my N first. While I want to do everything I can to make it go successfully, I can't control every single factor and there will always be a risk I am discovered and saved in the worst case scenario. If this happens, I want to be able to reattempt without anyone trying to stop me so my drinking of N needs to look like an accident and I want people to believe that I am entirely clueless and did not consume anything that could be dangerous to my knowledge. At worst, I want doctors and family and friends to have no idea I tried to CTB and instead just think I had some kind of weird medical episode or drank something by accident that was not to my knowledge contaminated. Does anyone have any advice or tips on how I can achieve this result? Here are my ideas so far...
*Pour the N into some kind of plastic cup or bottle (then hide or dispose of the N container where it won't be found) and then after drinking it from the cup, wash it out with water before lying in bed.
*No CTB note, no goodbyes, no nothing. No change of the status quo. I'll make a believable excuse to family and friends that I'm on vacation so I should have a full week to myself without any disruption.
*I have the antiemetic metoclopramide, but maybe I should avoid taking it if it would make me look suspicious? But then again, if they find it in my system, I can just say I was having a lot of acid reflux and nausea in the last few days, and that the meto was helping with it, so that maybe they would just think those symptoms are just additional symptoms related to my 'weird' 'mystery' medical condition that's hopefully going to leave doctors puzzled, but not suspicious at all.
*Clothes on, but I am going to put a blanket over my head (to hopefully somewhat hasten and ensure death with less plentiful oxygen) since I often sleep like that anyway.

My biggest worry about failure with N or SN is being left disabled enough where I can't reattempt independently so something like blind, paralyzed, or in a permanent coma, but luckily I have never heard of a failed N or SN attempt that resulted in any of these serious outcomes. Let me know if you have heard of this happening or what you think the risk of this is.

 

[requiesce]

According to case reports, a sufficient dose of N will lead to death within 15-30 minutes. If you are not found within that period, there is no way you are being brought back to life. I read a specific case of someone who ingested a large dose of N, more than sufficient, but told his mother after 10 minutes of ingestion. The serum levels of N kept him in a coma, but after these went down he made a complete neurological recovery. Nevertheless, brain death is also possible in such a case, but like I said, you would have to be rushed to the hospital practically immediately after ingesting it.