You have $20k to spend before you ctb. What are you buying?

[ShatteredShards]

Personally I'd like to visit Colorado. My family lived there before I was born, so I've grown up looking at beautiful pictures in photo albums, but never got to see it myself. My mom would tell me about our house and the view and the walk to the supermarket. Now she's gone and I feel like I need to go before I go. But I'm broke, unfortunately.

What about you though?

For the sake of simplicity, I'd purchase a reliable shotgun and box of shells.

The rest would be split amongst various charities and those who've supported me.

 

[BadChanges]

There isn't anything that I want. I have Anhedonia

 

[Secrets1]

I'm giving it to my kid so he and his girlfriend can go on a trip to where ever they want, or add to their investments so they can have a little more to work with when it comes time to retire, or help them buy a property they want to build their dream house on, or just go to the casino and blow. All I want is for them to be happy.

I love how you put all the autonomy in their hands with no judgement about the outcome. Pure hope for happiness in any form. I bet you're a great parent.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd only want to buy a painless death, I just hope and wish to never wake ever again, all I want is a death like falling into an eternal dreamless sleep to finally escape from the suffering and torture of existing and I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents and it's all just so dreadful to me, I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily just waiting to die anyway. I'd just never wish for this torturous, deeply undesirable existence of suffering all for the sake of it that I just always saw as the most cruel mistake in the first place and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing, it's all so terrible to me.

 

[Schnipsel]

Mastectomy for a friend of mine

 

[Malfunction]

By that you mean the bribe you have to pay to get yourself selected ?

Yea death is a big money maker. Gotta have deep pockets to go with dignity. And then you get dinged after you die (well someone else does I guess)

Pretty twisted man.

 

[Life'sA6itch]

A trip to see the emperor penguins in Antarctica and supplies for my life's exit upon my return to America

 

[botanormal]

Rehab for my sister definitely! And if there was a little left over, I'd go visit some of my friends overseas

 

[usernamesarehard]

Considering I'll be in this position when I ctb...

My plan is to call out of work in case I change my mind and then find a hotel or abnb that's reasonably priced to spend my last month in. I want the majority of the money to go to my mom, so I don't want to blow it all on bs that won't matter when I'm dead. Or feel guilty for having wasted the money if I choose to live.

I plan on playing videogames and taking walks and just enjoying being free. Maybe I'd talk to people since it won't matter if I embarrass myself since I won't be able to think about it in a few short weeks.

I want most of the money to go to my mom, but I don't want my last few days/ weeks to be spent in misery going to work and being depressed.

 

[SchizoGymnast]

To be perfectly honest, if I had 20k just to spend, I wouldn't need ctb.

 

[kopebaldy]

Hitman

 

[Forveleth]

Some fentanyl and a private jet to some country with a beautiful place for me to die.

 

[wham311]

The only thing I want to buy is something towards a peaceful painless death

 

[JesiBel]

I would save that money for the family, I have no desire for material or superficial things like a trip/vacation or things like that.

 

[claracatchingthebus]

My timeline for dying isn't immediately, but within years, so 20K doesn't really make a dent, unfortunately.

The cost of being alive and not homeless (without help from anyone) is about 20K per year, so I'd probably spend it cautiously and be less worried about money.

 

[Ijustcantanymore]

Assuming I don't need the money to Ctb, I would put it in an IRA for my partner.

 

[buscatcher222]

I'd probably give it to my friends to cover the cost of any therapy or self-care to help process and deal with my death

 

[nobodycaresaboutme]

live as usual and postpone ctb until the money runs out

 

[J&L383]

a trip to switzerland for pegasos

Recommend the new one, Athanasios, over Pegasos. Mainly, you don't need to pay more than 100 Swiss francs to get an evaluation. Yes or no. (Pegasos requires the 5000 initial deposit, only 3,800 of which is refunded if you're denied, but reports are they are keeping or making it difficult to get any money back, so just beware). Pegasos has poor communication and Athanasios has very good communication, including phone calls.

 

[jewelxxet]

Recommend the new one, Athanasios, over Pegasos. Mainly, you don't need to pay more than 100 Swiss francs to get an evaluation. Yes or no. (Pegasos requires the 5000 initial deposit, only 3,800 of which is refunded if you're denied, but reports are they are keeping or making it difficult to get any money back, so just beware). Pegasos has poor communication and Athanasios has very good communication, including phone calls.

thanks for letting me know

 

[J&L383]

Give them some latitude for English not being their main language. Also the criteria for acceptance is going to be similar. (Twenties unlikely unless very sick).

 

[TAW122]

I'd probably try to take one more vacation on my own terms and enjoy some good food, some copes, and then whatever is left maybe donate to some causes I support (maybe right to die groups and what not), and then CTB.

 

[AuraByte]

Paying off my parent's debts.

Mine can die with me.

 

[Eriktf]

lots of drugs

 

[Saturn_]

I would probably just give it to someone else who would actually need it, instead of spending it on luxuries I'd only enjoy for a short while. I don't think anything that money can buy would fill the void or make me feel happier at this point.

 

[Cauliflour]

 

[Dark Moon]

I would go on a holiday/travel but I can't do that for personal reasons and no support anyway. I would invest it but there's a chance of losing it and the gains would be made over time and I won't live to see any major gains, so that is somewhat pointless. I suppose I would splunk it on nice food, technology and video games.

 

[astonishedturnip]

Use it to fund one of those 300-day globetrotting cruises (I have enough savings to cover the rest) with first-class airfare and a big veranda stateroom. Party like a gangster, eat as much as I want and anything I want, explore the world, let myself be pampered. Then either drink like a fish and "fall" off my balcony on the last night, or just plain blow my brains out as soon as I get home. It's more or less already my plan once my parents (the only anchors tying me to the world rn) pass away, but 20k would go a long way so that I could get an upgrade from an interior stateroom.

 

[guessilldie]

For the first time in my life visit a beautiful mountain range. Maybe do a MT Everest base camp trek. Then come home drank for a week, leave some money for my funeral and my brothers kids and hang myself. Sounds like a dream. 20k is a shitton of money in my country sadly

 

[amerie]

My final list is so childish lol, but I'm a very sentimental person and I want to make my last moments special

- I love amusement parks, i think I'd really want to go to six flags right before I CTB. They've always filled me with such happiness and peace.

- I want to eat at a Chinese buffet, and I think the main items I'm getting are chicken nuggets and egg drop soup. I was a picky eater as a child, and these were one of the few things I liked eating so it's an homage to my old self before reality kicked in if that makes sense.

- I'm going back to my mothers country to spend time with my cousins/other relatives one last time and perhaps giving things away to them.

- The obvious court documents for who gets to inherit my stuff

- Going back to my childhood beach/national park and paying homage to the places I explored as a kid