You ever feel ready to die for a moment and then it stops?

[Circles]

I fucking hate that feeling. It's like tempting fate constantly. I want to move on to the other side so badly and finally die. This life isn't for me. I never was meant for it. And I got this nagging feeling or indescribable mixed emotion tempting me or tangling inside myself that I'm ready to kill myself finally as though my mind and body finally gives me permission to fucking do it already. But then it's only momentary like sand going through my hands I can't hold onto. I just want to go. I'm not meant to stay here anymore. I'm nothing in this world and I'm meant to be nothing forever.

 

[Darkover]

we are all destined to be nothing forever nothing here is built to last sooner or later everyone dies the thing is to die well

 

[Circles]

we are all destined to be nothing forever nothing here is built to last sooner or later everyone dies the thing is to die well

But I want that forever to happen now.

 

[Darkover]

But I want that forever to happen now.

me too if only we had a off switch

 

[LoneMisery]

I get so excited when i feel im ready and then this feeling idk where it comes from just makes me hold back. Its not sex drugs food or family. That instinct that keeps me going and keeps me living with pain. I wish i could overcome it like my father did.

 

[Al Cappella]

It totally comes and goes for me all the time, like on a daily basis. Even when I'm not feeling all that miserable. I've been able to manage it be recognizing that it's only a thought, and to allow it to pass through. In my case it gets triggered by stress, too.

 

[AnestheticVoid]

It's torture.

 

[Circles]

I'm just so fucking tired of being me. :(

 

[Hurt]

I am ready to die everyday

 

[SpaceCadet]

Me too, me too. Funny thing it's alcohol used to make me happy, now it makes me even more suicidal, it's a shame that shouldn't be used with Sn, it really helps overcoming second thoughts.

 

[deletednumber]

Not exactly...I'm ready since july 2020,it's just that all my attempts failed but i understand what are you talking about

 

[Micheal64]

I've had this feeling since I was 14. I hope to die this year.

 

[ColorlessTrees]

Yes. It's usually onset by failure or a particularly weak moment. However, I am always passively suicidal. I fear the unknown of death most of the time, yet I want to die. I wish for the void, but the damn potential and the lies I tell myself hold me back.

It seems to be a common feeling, unfortunately. It may be related to biologic desire to live, but it is extremely frustrating. I hope you are able to overcome this eventually.

Best wishes.

 

[WhiteRabbit]

I have moments where all I want to do is drink the N and lie down, but then if I really think about it for a while the fear and doubt start to creep in.

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case, I am only still here as it is so difficult to leave this world. I lack the option of a peaceful and reliable way to exit and there is the fear of failure. I am always ready to die, I just wish death would come peacefully but yet I am still stuck in this world. I just want eternal nothingness, I want to be free from all pain. Life is just a pointless struggle that I have no interest in, and I have suffered enough.

 

[Braindead Atheist]

Yes, sometimes I do then I get scared.
Yes, sometimes I do then I get scared.