would you want to die at your happiest or at your most distraught?

[LastLoveSong]

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[danivodka5]

The last day on Earth, please be at the beach.

 

[bravelytothewinter]

in my room playing a game - talking to friends.

 

[TAW122]

In an ideal circumstance, probably at my happiest as this wouldn't allow for any regrets or suffering and ending on a high note.

 

[Carrot]

Strange question, perhaps I take it too literally.

Why would I want to bw sad? Being sad increases the chance to ctb. But if we assume it's my last day, I might as well be happy, if that wouldn't affect my SI.

 

[eupdplishlp]

haapiness. its the meaning of life. I wish to achieve it on my last day

 

[cat_enjoyer22]

At the happiest. Better to end it good.

 

[pinstripe]

The ideal is to be very happy and confident that it's time to go.

Misery is sometimes pervasive though so as long as I'm gone either way it will be nice

 

[yellowjasminegoing]

I feel with pinstripe, as long as I go, it's good with me. But it think I'll be a little sad but relieved. And happy. A mix.

 

[openBottomJeans]

I wish to die happy. But unfortunately in life, I was unhappy. I fear my death will be sad too

 

[brokeandbroken]

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Right now my best days would've been my worst days in years past. It's terrifying because there's a very real possibility there is absolutely nothing I can do to change it. If all my days left in my life are my worst days and the life I currently live is the best I can hope for until i die. Then yeah I want to be dead. This isn't a life. I don't have anything in life you care about. It's a hollow life.

To answer your question it has nothing to do with being distraught. It has to do with having any sense of agency over my life. Dying when things are good make no sense. If you are at your worst and your life can get better it doesn't make sense for it to be over either. But if your life is just the worst then yeah....

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'd like to be calm at least. Maybe not happy or sad. Just accepting.

 

[Flyleaves]

If I am happy I don't want to CTB anymore. So yeah sadly and unfortunate it's going to be distraught. But accepting and tranquil is going to be best.

 

[NeoN0va]

I don't really care anymore lolz! I'm planning to kill myself on my friends birthday, right after getting out of her house. The point is she wanted no contact for unspecified period of time, but before that i promised ill visit her on her birthday. My plan is to ask if she still wants to be friends after all this time, and no matter what she says, IM GOING TO END IT. LULZ. it'd be so funny, like being left alone for 2 FUCKING MONTHS and then just coming back?! if i suffered then she should too lol, after all even after my brothers incident when i called her and broke no contact, she didnt pick up the phone. when i texted her, she left me on seen. EVEN THOUGH I TOLD HER WHAT HAPPENED.. WHAT DOES SHE EVENT THINK LMFAO.
can we overdose on drugs pls
she made a bit pissed off and made me unable to cope with what happened, and NOW im turning INSANE!!!!!!!!!!!!
that's pretty in sane, right?@ hahaha
left alone by all my friends to suffer all alone, noone even wanted to listen lmfao fhckjng losers
ive got like 10 people in my mind, i have no fucking idea why but i guess its the previous personas ive created?!!!!!@ i have no fucking idwa but its so funny to be like this because GOD KNOWS WHAT COMES NEXT

 

[kopebaldy]

I would like to die right now lol

 

[anxiousguineapig]

If I was dying randomly (eg heart attack or stroke out of nowhere, dead basically instantly) I'd want my last moments to be happy. But if I was ctbing I'd want it to be while distraught, because knowing I would die would make me feel better. I wouldn't want to ctb while very happy, for me it's something to "save" until I can be reasonably sure there is no joy/happiness/meaning left for me in life (if I ever get to that point).

 

[Zen0]

Probably most distraught, I've been back and forth with myself about this kind of conversation. It wasn't until more recent years that I think I've truly felt I had any connection or ties to this world. I think I'd only like to die when I've got nothing left worth living for.

 

[AuraByte]

My happiest would be to be with someone I lost, but I won't be able to do that until I die.

Guess my answer would be a bit fucked lol.

 

[Unknown21]

I don't think it'd matter at all. I'm gonna die at the end of the day.

 

[EgoBrained]

Definitely not at the happiest, to have reached such a point, a moment of reprieve from suffering, only to not be able to experience it, would be infuriating.

 

[LastLoveSong]

The last day on Earth, please be at the beach.

now im thinking about the peter bergmann case

in my room playing a game - talking to friends.

i assume thats happy ?

If I am happy I don't want to CTB anymore. So yeah sadly and unfortunate it's going to be distraught. But accepting and tranquil is going to be best.

i feel like happiness for me would only be temporary before i come back to reality

I would like to die right now lol

wow we have so much in common

If I was dying randomly (eg heart attack or stroke out of nowhere, dead basically instantly) I'd want my last moments to be happy. But if I was ctbing I'd want it to be while distraught, because knowing I would die would make me feel better. I wouldn't want to ctb while very happy, for me it's something to "save" until I can be reasonably sure there is no joy/happiness/meaning left for me in life (if I ever get to that point).

pretty sure im already at that point

My happiest would be to be with someone I lost, but I won't be able to do that until I die.

Guess my answer would be a bit fucked lol.

my answer would be fucked too thats why im asking other people lol

Definitely not at the happiest, to have reached such a point, a moment of reprieve from suffering, only to not be able to experience it, would be infuriating.

yeah but leaving on that note is also intriguing, since you wont know if you'll ever get to feel like that again afterwards. I never said you wouldnt be able to experience it

 

[Chronic_ Disaster]

My most distraught knowing what i know now. It would just save me future years of even worse suffering. Specifically i wish my first serious attempt when i was 12 years old was successful. I think back on it a lot and i wish it worked.

 

[nihilistic_dragon]

Distraught. Will be easier to pull the proverbial trigger. I want to be in a quiet, calm place on my own with my own thoughts though.