The worse part of the day for me is waking up. Increasingly now I get disappointed when I wake up and realized what I dreamed about isn't my reality. I dream of a fantasy life where I'm happy and everything worked out good for me or of a real life event where I am still surrounded by people who I believed loved me at the time. It's so frustrating and disappointing knowing I'll never live how I dreamed about or even believe I'm worthy of being happy because of how valueless has a human i am. My thoughts darken as the days go by, but when I think (work out an appropriate and effective method) I don't feel sadness for some reason. I feel calm and clear.
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FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 48,667
I hate waking up too. It is the worst part of the day for me. Life is tedious to me and is mostly just suffering for the sake of it. Thinking of death brings me a lot of comfort, as I know that it is the only way to find any sort of peace, it is an escape.
Snake of Eden
“Ye shall be as gods..🍎 🐍”
- Jun 22, 2021
- 2,472
waking up is the worst time of the day with me. All the dread i escaped by sleeping comes rush in with the first moments as I open my eyes. I havent found a good way of escaping that but i am sure i am not the only one
Bullit
Mage
- May 6, 2021
- 504
Dead girl walking
It was never good.
- May 26, 2020
- 24
Mornings were my worst part of the day until I actually got on the right antidepressant, and decided I was going to try to increase my happiness even from 1/10 to 3/10. I don't beat myself up for being so sad in the morning anymore. Like I said the new antidepressant in the morning helped to no end once I got on the dose that suited me. Don't go contemplating planning suicide because mornings are crap. Accept it. Honestly beating yourself up for it isn't helping. Write a gratitude list. Get on the music. Read "miracle morning". You will improve. I haven't yet but the hope is there xLast edited:
ClownMe
Don't Cry for Me, I'm Already Dead
- Apr 7, 2021
- 20,560
personally, the worst time of the day in my opinion is just before i go to sleep because i know i will soon have to wake up and do the same shit again.
I try not to beat myself up but it just seems like something I can't help. I honestly don't know why I can never say anything positive about myself.
motel rooms
Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
- Apr 13, 2021
- 7,081
Dear Agony
The Void
- Jan 24, 2020
- 296
I definitely relate to hating waking up, but personally, the worst part of the day is when I lay in bed to sleep. It's like I have to relive all my day and realize how things won't change, that, how you said it, I won't ever get my dream life. No God is coming to save me and make my wishes come true. There's just no way out other than suicide, and I wish that wasn't true. I wish there was. Life is so beautiful... My life is so ugly.
I usually don't cry, but lately, as I come closer to the end and can feel it, I can't hold my tears of desperation, praying for a God that won't come to give me a reason to stay. I am unable to sleep, because every reason for me to die comes to my head. I am unable to sleep because I wish that when I did, I wouldn't wake up ever again...Similar threads
