Worse at night

[lostmylove]

Anyone the same?

Just unbearable absolutely ridiculous every single night like clockwork feelings x10 worse, followed by nightmares when I do manage to wake up.

Recently I've been having intrusive thoughts, stupid songs playing in my head on repeat.

One of these songs is staying alive by The Bee Gees. Wonder if I've actually lost my mind now or something or my brain is straight up mocking me right now with Si. You couldn't make this shit up what a sick joke

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I'm the opposite. As the day begins to fade I tend to relax. Morning is the worst for me.

 

[goofy]

Yea im the same, although sometimes I wake up just feeling like shit

 

[lostmylove]

Yea im the same, although sometimes I wake up just feeling like shit

I wake up wanting to die it's my first thought

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

I'm the opposite. As the day begins to fade I tend to relax. Morning is the worst for me.

Same

 

[Al_stargate]

I'm the opposite. As the day begins to fade I tend to relax. Morning is the worst for me.

Me too. Waking up feels like a punch in the gut. Late evenings I feel better so I'll be able to ctb than more peacefully. I've had the song Personal Jesus by Depeche Mode stuck in my head some time ago.

 

[sharky]

I feel worse in the morning. At night I'm kind of at peace most of the time but mornings are just the worst for me

 

[symphony]

This is absolutely me. For some reason, I feel more desperate and I'm more likely to feel acutely suicidal, self-harm, or have panic attacks. I'm not sure why. I build up dread around going to sleep because going to sleep = waking up next morning = another day of suffering. There's also the isolation aspect. No one to talk to as I fall deeper into darkness.

 

[Red Scare]

Anyone the same?

Just unbearable absolutely ridiculous every single night like clockwork feelings x10 worse, followed by nightmares when I do manage to wake up.

Recently I've been having intrusive thoughts, stupid songs playing in my head on repeat.

One of these songs is staying alive by The Bee Gees. Wonder if I've actually lost my mind now or something or my brain is straight up mocking me right now with Si. You couldn't make this shit up what a sick joke

I know what you're going through, the first months are the worst. I don't think I ate anything for the first week or so. I had to put away all the pictures where I wouldn't see them.

Mornings, and nights are still hard. Going to sleep, waking up alone. Sleeping in an empty bed. Eating alone.

I started sleeping with his pillow instead of mine, it still smelled like him.

 

[☆AwaitingEntropy☆]

I'm the same, my suicidal thoughts are worse in the evening or at night, though usually at least somewhat present in the mornings. Also, for some reason, it's been hitting very very intensely randomly in the middle of the day too, with no apparent trigger.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me, the night time is very depressing. It is awful when it takes me a long time to fall asleep. However, all times of the day are horrible for me as my life is only misery and suffering. I do not want any more days or nights, all that I want is eternal nothingness.