Will the Christmas of 2021 be a bad Christmas for you?

[NormaJeane]

People always use to say "Merry Christmas" and "Happy New Year" this time of year, but New Year´s Day is the deadliest day of the year because people commit suicide, partly because they are tormented by loneliness. Not everyone will have a merry Christmas 2021 and especially not us on Sanctioned Suicide. Do you want to die for Christmas or New Year? Will the Christmas of 2021 be a bad Christmas for you?

 

[rationaltake]

Yes.

 

[noname223]

Christmas will be horrible due to my family. To compensate that I bought me a present for the day. I have to live around the people who have done this to me. (abuse and mistreatment)
New Years celebration was horrible 2019. 2 of my best friends had their gf's with them. This increased my desire for a partner and the loneliness way more. Moreover I was fired one month before. I was in a mixed bipolar episode. It was so horrible.
Last year I did not went to the party due to covid restriction. (Too high penalty)
Not sure for what I am hoping this year. On the hand I do not want to spend time with my family, on the other side the gf of my best friend (their hugging and kissing in front of me) makes me so jealous. (or is envy the the right word? I envy this kind of relationship.)

I might stop going to college this week. The end of November has many anniversaries for me. My first psychosis years ago (which destoryed my life) and I was fired some years ago at the end of November. So I have something to celebrate. Becoming more bitter, lonely, resentful and desperate this year. And the worst is yet to come. I cannot believe this is happening to me. It feels so absurd like this is all a joke. Life is a joke and the joke is on me.

 

[ddd1234]

worst. I hope I will not make it till Christmas time

 

[Hangman]

Same as the ones before. Somewhat lonely and depressing.

 

[healthrecovery]

Dont get me started

 

[peepo]

I wont be here for Christmas :)

 

[Helpless77]

Not if my plans work. Then there won't be any more Christmas for me at all

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

It's going to be the worst Christmas of my entire life without a doubt. I really can't even begin to think about it.

Further inspiration to take action and execute my demise.

 

[FuneralCry]

I do not like Christmas. Everything about it irritates me. However it will just be a normal day for me, I do not 'celebrate' it or do anything differently. The idea of celebrating anything disgusts me. Of course it will be horrible as every day is painful for me no matter what time of year it is. Being alive hurts me and the pain will only end when I die.

 

[Wrennie]

I kind of want Christmas to be the day I die. My death will be my final "gift" to myself. I'm hoping I have everything I need by then... I'll probably have to CTB sooner, though.

 

[ClownMe]

Christmas is just another sad day for me.

 

[OrcWitch]

This is the first christmas I will be exchanging presents in a very long time. Thinking of buying some beer and cigarettes, maybe some weed for the day too. But overall I dislike this time of year and Christmas has always been this cruel reminder that my life is abnormal. Sitting alone feeling sorry for myself while all the normal people shower each other in affection with their healthy families.

I guess to summarize, this Christmas is going to be a huge upgrade over the last 19 or so. But I don't think it's going to be some happy thing, I can see myself being a bit sad.

 

[stygal]

My mood is definitely not effected by the lack of a traditional Christmas quite the opposite - I'm glad I'm not in contact with most relatives any more and don't have to pretend or buy anything.

 

[thinkkank]

the past five haven't been great so this one will be the same

 

[Marktheghost]

Yes. Extremely lonely.
I just try to forget it's christmas and treat it like a normal day; it's too depressing otherwise!

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Last Christmas, I ordered my N
But the very next day, customs took it away

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

Last Christmas, I ordered my N
But the very next day, customs took it away

Oh no. Where may I ask?

 

[Seaghost]

Oh yes it'll be

 

[OpheliasFlowers]

Christmas is just another sad day for me.

Same. I'm just going to try to sleep through it like I have the past 15+ years (and most holidays). Mostly it's just like any other day except for the memories of past Christmases, which were happy and full of family, that intrude into my thoughts...which is why I try to take benzos and just sleep away the day.

 

[motel rooms]

Xmas? I celebrate the Bacchanalia.

 

[canna2]

Good Christmas cause I will die with N :)

I got my special santa deliviring my elixir IN PERSON : ) )) )

 

[Darkover]

i haven't been able to enjoy life for 5 years i wish i was dead everyday this christmas will be no different the best thing that could happen to me is somehow i find a way out soon, of course i wouldn't care if nuclear armageddon happen it would be a miracle to end all this shiity life on this planet and to be nothing for all time that would be the best christmas ever for the whole world to go up in flames

 

[looseye]

I'll probably get high as fuck and pretend Christmas is an Illuminati invention aimed at turning people into snowmen or some other crazy shit. Can't stand that day sober.

 

[FreeAngel]

this month i will die before 2022 begins

 

[Leiden]

So bad ):

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Hopefully not but who knows

 

[orange]

I wont be here for Christmas :)

I'm jelly

 

[Laddydragon]

I think so have no one really I'd like some not friends more acquaintances to celebrate with but I'm sure it won't happen cause I know I'll be sad and just a negative vibe for people around me cause this is the first year I've no real family around me and it just hurts a lot I suppose stupid but yeah.

 

[Soapie]

I try to treat christmas as sort of a time where I can just rest my mind for a day. I'm hoping I can spend it that way, but we'll see how it goes. It doesnt go according to plan usually.