Why the hell does healing have to take so much freaking work

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

Its not fair
It didnt take any ounce of "work" for my abusers to abuse me. I shouldn't have to work as hard to heal
Then again, what is the point of healing anyways? What is the point of years of work, only to have a little bit of time to be "happy"
It's a waste of time. Shame.

Though its probably nt healthy, but I have been avoiding most people irl. You start to hate people when you see them for who they are, and in turn you hate yourself. Besides, Im just one person anyways
Surely someone will come around and do better things than I've ever done
Im replicable in that sense

 

[Deleted member 17949]

It's some serious bullshit, it takes literally no effort from anyone for us to get into this state but apparently requires loads of effort to gt out.

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

It's some serious bullshit, it takes literally no effort from anyone for us to get into this state but apparently requires loads of effort to gt out.

It is so not fair. And whats worse is that I am too afraid to die. my method is jumping off a bridge, yet I am too scared to do it. I am so pathetic that I want to die but I cant :(

 

[Deleted member 17949]

It is so not fair. And whats worse is that I am too afraid to die. my method is jumping off a bridge, yet I am too scared to do it. I am so pathetic that I want to die but I cant :(

What I hate is that life just keeps moving on top of it all. I can't really focus on it because I'm expected to still manage college, work, social life and other things. It's way too much to handle all at once, I need a break dammit.

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

Ugh I need a fucking vacation from everyone in my life.

Also I am in college too but since the sexual assault I have lost faith in my school. Lets just say they never helped me.