why live

[cantthinkofusername]

im planning to check out on thursday. i dont really feel sad or scared anymore. i feel free.
but i dont know. i feel a little bit lost. ive spent all my life fighting so hard to live, and now im just confused why.
why live?
why?
what reason is there for any of this
why live

 

[turnoverover]

not sure what im holding on for either i think. the more i dwell on how nothings worked out for me i have less and less of a reason to give

 

[iLikeFrogs]

for me it's those little things that still hane a hold on me, even after I gave up and started planning to ctb. It's mostly my online friends and the fact that saying goodbye to them scares me, a package I ordered some time ago and it still didn't come. I don't really have much reasons as I'm still lost about of I'm ready to leave or ready to endure the nightmares of living