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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
1,608
I been through enough bs
Bullying
Heartbreak
Assault
Religious trauma
Colorism
Neglect
Mothers death
Two car accidents
Alcoholism
Antidepressants
Accutane
Depression
 
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Chasing Sleep

Chasing Sleep

sad hoe
Mar 10, 2022
47
I been through enough bs
Bullying
Heartbreak
Assault
Religious trauma
Colorism
Neglect
I understand completely. Been through so much pain and yet I couldn't go through with my last attempt. It's so hard. Sorry you're going through this. Religious trauma is hell.
 
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Someone123

Illuminated
Oct 19, 2021
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In my community we have colorism. Where lighter skinned woman are favored over dark skinned woman
Honestly this even happens for some black people in the u.s.- people who are much darker black are often looked down on by lighter skinned black people- I've seen some black comedians talking about this.
I been through enough bs
Bullying
Heartbreak
Assault
Religious trauma
Colorism
Neglect
I think you posted that you had a recent sn attempt where you stopped due to the pain being 4 out of 10- I really hope I can push through that when i try sn. I do wonder if it was the pain level or the SI or the combination that stopped you- it seems like maybe it was mainly the SI.
 
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Al Cappella

Al Cappella

Are we there yet?
Feb 2, 2022
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I'm not sure, but it may have something to to with the fact that the drive to survive is the strongest one you've got…
 
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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
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I'm not sure, but it may have something to to with the fact that the drive to survive is the strongest one you've got…
This freaking sucks
 
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Someone123

Illuminated
Oct 19, 2021
3,874
I'm not sure, but it may have something to to with the fact that the drive to survive is the strongest one you've got…
I do have a belief that after this life there is most likely a much better life, though I am not comletely certain- I am hoping that looking forward to that, and looking forward to leaving problems behind here, can help me to push through.
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,616
I believe that it is difficult to let go of this life because after all, this existence is all we know. We cannot comprehend what it is like to not exist. I agree with the user who mentioned the survival instinct, as even know we want to die, we are all programmed to survive. I am sorry for all the pain you have been through, I know that it is awful not wanting to exist, yet feeling as though you are trapped in this world. I wish that I could just let go of this life and sleep for all eternity but it is just so hard to leave this world. I wish you the best in whatever happens.
 
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