Discussion Why do you frequent Sasu?

[Pale_Rider]

I myself frequent Sasu, because I spent a good deal of time researching suicide methods, and never getting many real answers to my questions. When I accidentally found Sasu it was like I found a missing part of myself almost. Because here for once I could finally say what was on my mind. And those words had been screaming to get out of my soul.
I continue to visit Sasu, because those urges for an end ebb, and flow in me. I take comfort from reading posts, and comments from people experiencing the same , or common feelings as myself.
And finally when, and if I do commit suicide I want it to be humane. I answer other threads, because having made multiple ctb attempts with one actual death, and revival I would want others to have a humane as possible end if, and when the pain is so bad it overcomes SI.

Thank you Sasu for being there.

 

[jenson]

This is gonna sound kinda lame but I come on here to feel like I belong to something.

 

[Pale_Rider]

This is gonna sound kinda lame but I come on here to feel like I belong to something.

Nope it doesn't. Just people with common experiences sharing.

 

[Satori Komeiji]

I feel understood here which I can't say for anywhere else online.

 

[eattwinkiesseejesus]

I come here when im lonely and spiraling to be in the company of those like minded to be reminded im not alone and try to find and offer support and encouragement where I can. Ive read on methods but truly ive already got some locked in, im just here so im not 'alone'

 

[Pale_Rider]

I come here when im lonely and spiraling to be in the company of those like minded to be reminded im not alone and try to find and offer support and encouragement where I can. Ive read on methods but truly ive already got some locked in, im just here so im not 'alone'

Me too.

 

[darksouls]

in 2023 I was in an international forum and a few users talked about depression and suicidal thoughts
another user posted a link to sasu
unfotunately in my country sasu is not well-known
I never heard of sasu before
thank you buddy for the info
I am glad to be here

 

[Pale_Rider]

in 2023 I was in an international forum and a few users talked about depression and suicidal thoughts
another user posted a link to sasu
unfotunately in my country sasu is not well-known
I never heard of sasu before
thank you buddy for the info
I am glad tu be here

By the time I found Sasu it was still in Google, but I had to spend some time finding a search term. It's name wasn't shared in the article I had read. Even with the name it wasn't on the top if I remember correctly.

 

[failedmind]

i come here to know im not alone and to be understood. im sad that everyone here struggles, but i finally feel like ive found people who know how hard everyday is. sasu also helped me find my method and allowed me to explore and learn about others if i want. im very grateful ive found this site

 

[Forever Sleep]

Initially, I came here in search of methods but I saw immediately that I wanted to become a member of the site and participate in the really interesting philosophical conversations going on here.

The weird irony now is, I come here to try and keep staying alive! While I feel I have to anyway. I've always wanted to wait for my Dad to go first.

I find living so hard now. Just putting one reluctant foot infront of the other. I come here to feel less alone in that struggle. Not that I delight in other people's misery but, I suppose misery loves company- as they say. Both in terms of venting how I feel but, also seeking out distraction.

I suppose the common arguments against the forum are that it's an echo chamber. That we should in fact be telling family and friends- who will likely have none of it, tell us to pull ourselves together, dump us on to a therapist, panic and become depressed themselves or, abandon us all together. It's naive I think to believe people here haven't reached out at some point. I suspect we come here after that hasn't worked so well!

But yeah, I like to be able to be honest without being challenged. A knee jerk 'no' reaction really doesn't do anyone any favours.

There's so much more to the site than just methods and suicide too. People talk about all sorts here. I think it's rare to find somewhere you can freely speak your mind and not receive a whole lot of hate back.

That's what always amazes me here. We must contain some of the most unhappy, struggling people in society here and yet, the majority of the time, members show consideration for one another. For such a bleak subject and outlook, there is a lot of love/ appreciation here.

I suspect that scares the 'normies' though. They probably think it's all part of an evil ploy that people are so nice and welcoming, before indoctrinating them. It's just lunacy though! What happy go lucky person goes looking for a suicide forum to begin with? Plus, we don't push anyone into a decision they haven't already made themselves.

I truly hate the hate and misunderstanding the forum gets. I actually don't know how I would have coped the past few years without it. It's been a huge support for me.

And, when it does get to my time, I really hope I'll be able to go out cleanly, rather than maiming myself.

 

[unluckysadness]

I came because it's the only place I can speak freely about my suicidal ideation. And because I'm isolated. Reading other people's stories makes me feel I'm not alone with struggling

 

[Pale_Rider]

Initially, I came here in search of methods but I saw immediately that I wanted to become a member of the site and participate in the really interesting philosophical conversations going on here.

The weird irony now is, I come here to try and keep staying alive! While I feel I have to anyway. I've always wanted to wait for my Dad to go first.

I find living so hard now. Just putting one reluctant foot infront of the other. I come here to feel less alone in that struggle. Not that I delight in other people's misery but, I suppose misery loves company- as they say. Both in terms of venting how I feel but, also seeking out distraction.

I suppose the common arguments against the forum are that it's an echo chamber. That we should in fact be telling family and friends- who will likely have none of it, tell us to pull ourselves together, dump us on to a therapist, panic and become depressed themselves or, abandon us all together. It's naive I think to believe people here haven't reached out at some point. I suspect we come here after that hasn't worked so well!

But yeah, I like to be able to be honest without being challenged. A knee jerk 'no' reaction really doesn't do anyone any favours.

There's so much more to the site than just methods and suicide too. People talk about all sorts here. I think it's rare to find somewhere you can freely speak your mind and not receive a whole lot of hate back.

That's what always amazes me here. We must contain some of the most unhappy, struggling people in society here and yet, the majority of the time, members show consideration for one another. For such a bleak subject and outlook, there is a lot of love/ appreciation here.

I suspect that scares the 'normies' though. They probably think it's all part of an evil ploy that people are so nice and welcoming, before indoctrinating them. It's just lunacy though! What happy go lucky person goes looking for a suicide forum to begin with? Plus, we don't push anyone into a decision they haven't already made themselves.

I truly hate the hate and misunderstanding the forum gets. I actually don't know how I would have coped the past few years without it. It's been a huge support for me.

And, when it does get to my time, I really hope I'll be able to go out cleanly, rather than maiming myself.

I agree. Sasu has been a big deal for me. Being able to put into words, and share with other humans what I couldn't with the real world mattered to me.

 

[ankawannadie]

I don't have the energy to do anything anymore. Scared of going outside and opening other social media. But I feel comfortable on Sasu and feel like I truly belong here. Otherwise, I just rot and do nothing.

 

[starboy2k]

Im here because r/SuicideWatch was too tame and happy go lucky for me. This website made me feel instantly that the people here don't want to live anymore, and they stand 10 toes down on it.
I knew I would like this website when I saw someone make a post saying "I dont want any help from anyone, I just want to fucking die." Reddit can't handle that much rawness.

 

[Pale_Rider]

The thing about Sasu is you can actually share deep dark thoughts. Agreed.

 

[SmilingNoMore]

It's become like an online home to me almost. I've been quiet for a month or so, but still I feel comfortable here, where what we talk about cannot be spoken of out there. This world is sometimes more real to me, and makes more sense than the crazy one out there. I would've been lost without Sasu.

 

[Foxcompany2nd3rd]

Sense of unity, nobody understands us more. If you speak to anyone outside of communities like this about suicide or depression they will violently resent you and dismiss you because people are inherently afraid of negativity ruining their day.

 

[AnimeSlayersFan]

The closest I found to having friends, and like real friends, not those fakers you find offline that have an agenda, or those wild pro life pokemon you find on discord or reddit: "Oh don't stress so much dude, I'll be aight"
Hate those people, here? I feel listened to! And I can speak my mind much more freely, which is a thing I can't even do sucessfully on therapy. Cause I'm scared of them not getting the way to help me and just recommend me be admitted to a mental ward or just say "well you gotta talk to your psychiatrist"
Like bitch, I pay you to tell you weird shit and you not telling anyone, not to SNITCH on me on my mental issues. I need reassurance and help, not play pretend,

 

[PI3.14]

I like to chat with people here. Also, I don't have friends irl.

I also think that members here understand me more than anywhere else, we can relate a lot to each other.

I've already made my mind about ending my life. I would like to be here in my last chapter of life than anywhere else.

 

[Forveleth]

Came to get educated on methods, stayed to help others get educated on methods. And the death memes.

Suicide memes

Add your suicide memes.

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[NonEssential]

I can vent and discuss openly what's on my mind without having to disguise it as a dark joke

 

[33K1LLM3]

When I found SaSu, I found somewhere that made me feel like I wasn't alone. I found somewhere that gave me hope that I can control my life. I found a part of me that was missing for over 7 years. When I'm here, I'm hopeful. I'm hopeful that my pain will become soon, and that I will be able to say what I could've never said in the real world. I honestly am attached this place, I thank it so so much for giving what should've been mine, my autonomy, and the free will to do what I choose with it <3

 

[alwaysalone]

I can speak freely and I try to help those who ask questions if I actually know the answer or have some information that might help.

 

[CatLvr]

Cuz y'all are my people.

 

[openBottomJeans]

I think it's cool to connect with like minded individuals. Ones that don't judge, or get all quiet and awkward when the getting gets tough

 

[22yearsbroken]

To feel conected....

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

I feel like this is my tribe. However, still I'm a loner and an outcast and an outsider to any group. But somehow it's like "these are my people" here. Most of the time I can say how I feel without someone tossing cheap phrases at me to make me "feel better".

 

[Hellis]

I ised to be lowkey addicted to the site, I'm sure there's something scientific to it but I'm not a smarty pants so I just assume it is.

Now, I enter again with the intention of using it to unload when I need to. I don't plan on killing myself anymore, but the suicidal ideation remains and having a place to vent is good for me.

TLDR: used to use it as a place to be sad, now as a place to assist recovery.

 

[genie]

It's a GENUINE support forum, not just full of meaningless platitudes like most of them.

 

[EmptyBottle]

I use this place to connect with others, ask random CTB related questions even tho I probably won't CTB... do research on CTB methods, when bored or when I have CTB wishes... and even play forum games and similar :)