Venting Why do people miss or want to feeling bad?

[FoxSauce]

Idk been feeling for a few days without suicidal thoughts which feels really nice.
Having my head shut up for once feels so releaving yet I miss feeling sad.

Dunno if thats something I'm used. Im not happy nor sad?

Just ntohing tbh (maybe numb)
I guess i just wanna feel something?
Been like this for 2 weeks.

Ofc im trying to mask it as best as I can, Dont wanna worry people about this.

Ofc I'm taking meds like lithium and Velafaxine and buspar thay have been working.

But i really hate feeling nothing at all.

 

[Darkover]

When you've been used to feeling sad, anxious, or overwhelmed for a long time, those emotions while painful can start to feel familiar, even comforting in a strange way. So when they're suddenly gone, your brain might go: "Wait, what's going on? Something's missing." It can feel like emotional silence, and that silence itself can be unsettling.

Feeling numb or like "nothing" is also a valid emotional state—especially after periods of intense emotion. It can be your mind's way of recovering or processing. But that numbness can also bring its own kind of discomfort, like a lack of direction or connection.

Wanting to feel something even sadness can sometimes feel better than feeling empty or disconnected.