Venting Why can't I just be a normal man

[qetyioxz]

I dont get why I cant just be attracted to women. The only shit I'm attracted to is just an unnatural mix of both I'm practically asexual in real life. I dont want to have @nal sex with a feminised man that's just unnatural peverse and gross to me. Really I'm not trying to hate on anyone, If you like this stuff and you can accept it then that's good I even envy you but holy shit I just want to be fucking normal. I just want to have a full, normal life as a female attracted male. This atrraction brings me just dissapointment.

I don't have any desire for this shit I just want to experience a natural male-female attraction. Fuck man my life has really just gone to shit I can't even get a gf, wife or kids anymore. I just want to be with a woman and be so attracted to her and love her. Is this unreasonable man?? I'm just reallyyyyy at a loss bro. I think its all because my brain wasn't masculinised properly in the womb man fuck it even all makes sense now with how I acted as a kid, I was so effeminate looking back and even now I've matured I still can't stack up with my male peers in masculinity. And it's not like I'm feminine either I'm just a mediocre man at best. This shit really fucked up my personality, it all makes sense now the men don't even wanna respect me and be my friend and women don't even take me seriously is because my personality was fucked by lacking masculinity fuck all this man....

Im not asking to be 6ft or rich or jacked or anything I just want to be like 95% of other men with a primary attraction to women. All the other bullshit in my life I can get past but there's nothing I can do to change this I'm so hopeless man. I want to be who I was supposed to be...Out of all the people this could have happened to it had to be me, I just don't get why... My entire existence is just a failure in male development and I haven't known until now.....I really missed out on so much I could've been a true man living a fulfilling life....I know people will tell you to accept this but I've tried I just don't want it and it just doesn't feel right... it's all so painful and disappointing, what I'm attracted to isn't even real man, where does something like this occur in nature.. I don't even see a future for me anymore dude, everything around me is just trivial, what's the point in working and working if I can't have a wife and a family, that's what's important to me.

I envy men who are truly masculine and heterosexual so much now, you are all very lucky, it must feel amazing to connect with a woman sexually and romantically, to be attracted to something you truly desire. My life is ruined.. when I really ask why I couldnt be normal it just brings me to tears... I just want to pass away peacefully now, this whole thing is a living hell maybe I'll get lucky with reincarnation or something. What a life

 

[tonicer]

Maybe you have low testosterone? I think you can take it via supplements. Some body builders use it to increase their gains.