Venting Why am I so scared to end it

[Mango tea]

I always think about suicide every day I even found some methods that I can easily do but something just makes me scared to do this. Maybe it's just me being afraid of the afterlife because my religion doesn't sugarcoat that kind of stuff, I will go to hell. But sometimes I just don't care about that and yet I can't seem to kill myself. I've had such a shit life and even did unforgivable things that talking about will just make me feel worse already. Why cant I just simply disappear forever? Im not even a good person or someone worthy of friends.


Sorry for not setting the kommas and dots right English is my third language.

 

[StupidCat]

That's a question only you can answer, but I don't recommend trying ot CTB if you are scared of it. It's a serious decision after all.

 

[SchizoGymnast]

I always think about suicide every day I even found some methods that I can easily do but something just makes me scared to do this. Maybe it's just me being afraid of the afterlife because my religion doesn't sugarcoat that kind of stuff, I will go to hell. But sometimes I just don't care about that and yet I can't seem to kill myself. I've had such a shit life and even did unforgivable things that talking about will just make me feel worse already. Why cant I just simply disappear forever? Im not even a good person or someone worthy of friends.


Sorry for not setting the kommas and dots right English is my third language.

If you're scared, don't do it. It's really that simple.

 

[Polyxo]

Don't do it if you're apprehensive.

 

[Mango tea]

If you're scared, don't do it. It's really that simple.

I want to.

Please contact me. I'd like to learn about your methods that are easy.

You can find the methods on this website

 

[easypeasy]

I always think about suicide every day I even found some methods that I can easily do but something just makes me scared to do this. Maybe it's just me being afraid of the afterlife because my religion doesn't sugarcoat that kind of stuff, I will go to hell. But sometimes I just don't care about that and yet I can't seem to kill myself. I've had such a shit life and even did unforgivable things that talking about will just make me feel worse already. Why cant I just simply disappear forever? Im not even a good person or someone worthy of friends.


Sorry for not setting the kommas and dots right English is my third language.

Hi, I read your post and just wanted to say something.

You don't have to apologize for how you write—your message came through so clearly, and honestly, it really moved me. The fact that you're carrying this weight every day and still trying to make sense of it shows strength, even if it doesn't feel like it.
I know that feeling of wanting to disappear. When pain goes on too long, it can feel like the world has no place for you. But the fact that you're still here, still questioning, still hoping there's something more than fear and shame—that means something. You're not worthless. You're not beyond hope.

You said you've done things you think are unforgivable. I don't know what those things are, but I do know that people who are truly cruel usually don't feel the kind of guilt and self-awareness you've expressed. The fact that you care this much—that you're struggling to live with the weight of your past—tells me you're not the bad person you think you are.

There's still time for things to shift, even if just a little. You're not alone here. I see you. I believe you matter. If you ever want to talk more, I'll listen.

 

[Mango tea]

Hi, I read your post and just wanted to say something.

You don't have to apologize for how you write—your message came through so clearly, and honestly, it really moved me. The fact that you're carrying this weight every day and still trying to make sense of it shows strength, even if it doesn't feel like it.
I know that feeling of wanting to disappear. When pain goes on too long, it can feel like the world has no place for you. But the fact that you're still here, still questioning, still hoping there's something more than fear and shame—that means something. You're not worthless. You're not beyond hope.

You said you've done things you think are unforgivable. I don't know what those things are, but I do know that people who are truly cruel usually don't feel the kind of guilt and self-awareness you've expressed. The fact that you care this much—that you're struggling to live with the weight of your past—tells me you're not the bad person you think you are.

There's still time for things to shift, even if just a little. You're not alone here. I see you. I believe you matter. If you ever want to talk more,I

Thank you so much. This comment actually made me feel like a ton of weight has been removed from my shoulder. You're right that people who don't feel the guilt i do are way worse than me. Even if its hard to forgive me and move on at least i know i can improve from these mistakes and better myself to more people. I was about to cut today till i went back on this website, honestly i don't want to do that anymore.

 

[tshirt]

Hi, I read your post and just wanted to say something.

You don't have to apologize for how you write—your message came through so clearly, and honestly, it really moved me. The fact that you're carrying this weight every day and still trying to make sense of it shows strength, even if it doesn't feel like it.
I know that feeling of wanting to disappear. When pain goes on too long, it can feel like the world has no place for you. But the fact that you're still here, still questioning, still hoping there's something more than fear and shame—that means something. You're not worthless. You're not beyond hope.

You said you've done things you think are unforgivable. I don't know what those things are, but I do know that people who are truly cruel usually don't feel the kind of guilt and self-awareness you've expressed. The fact that you care this much—that you're struggling to live with the weight of your past—tells me you're not the bad person you think you are.

There's still time for things to shift, even if just a little. You're not alone here. I see you. I believe you matter. If you ever want to talk more, I'll listen.

all due respect if not, but why does this sound like GPT?

 

[easypeasy]

all due respect if not, but why does this sound like GPT?

I figured this question might arise. It's because I transcribe my answers with chat gpt's voice to text option, due my disability. I have severe chronic pain so simply focusing and typing exhausts me.

But I want to help as many people as possible. So I scribe my responses and chat gpt cleans it up. Sometimes it's not what I want, so I have to correct it. But it's all me. And I authored every word. I'd rather use it to help me get my message out and hopefully help others, than not try at all.

I can start to make them less polished if it helps, but I still need to transcribe things I say to make it easier on my body.

Thank you so much. This comment actually made me feel like a ton of weight has been removed from my shoulder. You're right that people who don't feel the guilt i do are way worse than me. Even if it's hard to forgive me and move on at least i know i can improve from these mistakes and better myself to more people. I was about to cut today till i went back on this website, honestly i don't want to do that anymore.

You're very kind. To take the time to reply to me when you're already struggling with the heaviness you described…that shows strength and fortitude. You're very welcome

 

[BlueLock]

I don't know you or your story but I do know the feeling really well. I think part of it is survival instincts kicking in—that seems to be what stops a lot of people from killing themselves, or cause them to abort mid attempt.

Personally I deal with a lot of hesitation too, not just because of survival instincts but because I'm scared of what comes next. You might want to reflect more on why you want to die, it could be part of you isn't convinced that the only solution is to die.

 

[Average Joe]

Perhaps it is the fear of death, with what comes after or simply just the idea of death itself.
There could be a small part of you that isn't ready to die, dampened down by your suffering.
Humans have evolved with a strong instinct to survive — it's hardwired into our brains. That's why suicidal thoughts go against our biology; they conflict with the natural drive to stay alive.

You could try reflect on your thoughts but don't try and force an answer.
As everyone knows, suicide is permanent and there's no coming back from it, so like others have said, don't act on your suicidal thoughts if you don't feel ready.
(By the way your English is perfect, it's my first language and I still struggle lol)

Can people stop asking to be pm'ed for methods. There's plenty of discussion on methods elsewhere. This person is trying to vent.

I hope you find some answers, and stick around with us.

 

[Mango tea]

all due respect if not, but why does this sound like GPT?

Sorry im trying to sound mature because i type like an idiot

 

[Mango tea]

Perhaps it is the fear of death, with what comes after or simply just the idea of death itself.
There could be a small part of you that isn't ready to die, dampened down by your suffering.
Humans have evolved with a strong instinct to survive — it's hardwired into our brains. That's why suicidal thoughts go against our biology; they conflict with the natural drive to stay alive.

You could try reflect on your thoughts but don't try and force an answer.
As everyone knows, suicide is permanent and there's no coming back from it, so like others have said, don't act on your suicidal thoughts if you don't feel ready.
(By the way your English is perfect, it's my first language and I still struggle lol)

Can people stop asking to be pm'ed for methods. There's plenty of discussion on methods elsewhere. This person is trying to vent.

I hope you find some answers, and stick around with us.

Im just trying to disappear forever i dont care if its permanent and i hate that my body doesn't just let me die

Also thanks for saying my english is perfect