WHO HAS DECIDED?

[Freefrompain]

Are you staying or leaving?

 

[StrugglingSienna]

Leaving! In October! How about you?

 

[Big_Eal]

leaving , just waiting for the right moment

 

[Jade10666]

leaving soon and in vivid colour

 

[Michi_Violeta]

I'm trapped in a pathetic limbo. My mother asked me to wait and it was a mistake, should've gone with it, but her and my own loose ends keep me here. This shouldn't have happened. I shouldn't be here, trapped between life and death.

 

[L9my]

leaving - hopefully in september

 

[inverse-weibull]

Leaving in May

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish to leave, I only hope for non-existence and no matter what I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it in this cruel, torturous existence I just never would had chosen and never would had wished for, to me continuing to exist is just prolonging the suffering in this existence where I'm just waiting to not exist anyway and I find it so terrifying and horrific how a human can suffer for so long just to be tortured in agony from old age. Existence to me truly is an abomination that just causes harm and suffering until all is gone in non-existence anyway and I see so much cruelty in how peaceful, guaranteed death is so cruelly denied for me with the suffering and torture of human existence seen as to force and prolong no matter what as all I hope for is to not exist, I just want peace from this existence that was so tragically imposed.

 

[Freefrompain]

Leaving! In October! How about you?

Still debating!

 

[softtodie]

leaving, no time frame yet but I am certain on my decision now

 

[Freefrompain]

I asked my dad to choke me and he refused……..can I choke myself???

 

[Outofoptions1]

Truthfully, I don't know.

I've been getting "better" in the sense that my suicidal thoughts are less intense. I even had my first normal day in months on Friday where I didn't have one thought about ctb. However, my underlying issues haven't changed and my "better" moments quickly turn back to suicidal moments so I'm not really better actually.. It's weird.

 

[wkmrn]

I keep thinking about it but I think about how awful it would be for my younger sibling if I am outlived . I don't want him to see me as this" young depressed girl who doesnt know any better abt life" as he reaches his 80's, and I don't want him to feel lonely.

 

[unworthy_]

Truthfully, I don't know.

I've been getting "better" in the sense that my suicidal thoughts are less intense. I even had my first normal day in months on Friday where I didn't have one thought about ctb. However, my underlying issues haven't changed and my "better" moments quickly turn back to suicidal moments so I'm not really better actually.. It's weird.

I feel the same. I thought I was getting better in Feb - Mac but I spiraled in the beginning of Apr. Any ounce of positiveness is gone. Aside from working out, I do not have other way out on how I feel, look, growth and future. I don't have the resources to do any of these. I don't have the mental capacity and on top of that, financial to improve my life.

As a 39y female, I am losing my value every day...

 

[Natty*]

Leaving unless I get a miracle. I'll have my SN soon (already have the benzos and other stuff) and I'm getting my house ready and writing out my final wishes for my family.

 

[wtg]

Maybe leaving

 

[DrJ3llyf1sh]

Leaving in 11 days. I've been helping people on this forum with their research and calculations. I want my last days to be helping others. That said, if anyone needs information regarding OD's or inert gasses or even drowning, HMU. The one thing I have no clue about at all is hanging.

 

[MathConspiracy]

Leaving. I'm attempting on the Good Friday but will probably fail (hanging). If I fail that, I don't know what to do.

 

[catfriend]

leaving in june!
just got my will sorted out. :)

 

[possessed]

Leaving in 11 days. I've been helping people on this forum with their research and calculations. I want my last days to be helping others. That said, if anyone needs information regarding OD's or inert gasses or even drowning, HMU. The one thing I have no clue about at all is hanging.

Hi, thanks for offering help. I want to DM you but I can't. It said that your profile is limiting users to see.........

 

[L9my]

Hi, thanks for offering help. I want to DM you but I can't. It said that your profile is limiting users to see.........

I second this, @DrJ3llyf1sh it seems your DM's are off.

 

[NonEssential]

Unsure at the moment, but I bought myself decent rope so I can't have the excuse of not having that.

 

[Freefrompain]

Hi, thanks for offering help. I want to DM you but I can't. It said that your profile is limiting users to see.........

You're welcome. You can try it now I just turned it on.

 

[belowaveragefish]

I know I'll leave sometime. I have very little reason to stick around for much longer. I'm honestly surprised I've lasted this long.

 

[other-ghost]

Leaving. I have a few dates im considering, but possibly in Q3 of this year. Could be earlier, but i'm trying to wrap things up first.

 

[Zanmato]

I wish I have the courage to leave, that's for sure.

 

[Freefrompain]

Thinking about going to the forest preserves.

 

[deepsweetdiver]

For surely leaving. Don't know when, but I don't know why I keep staying.

 

[whiskers]

leaving

 

[Loner]

I will be leaving, but for now, I need to exist for my family, but that is getting harder