who else is afraid their suicide will be announced publicly?

[xXSufferingXx]

i saw a british guy who died in thailand, all of social media talked about this guy for weeks on end, showing his picture also.
because he died kinda mysteriously or whatever, with a spiked drink.
but the point is just... who else is afraid to become like halfway famous after their suicide?

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm not ashamed that I may suicide one day. In a way, I think it will legitimise some of my behaviours. I haven't been the best family member, friend or work colleague. I've shunned a lot of my relationships/ friendships. To some extent- I think that if I do suicide- people may understand the negativity I was shielding them from.

It also would legitamize how seriously I've felt for literally decades. I haven't really fully expressed to family how I feel. They sometimes used to mock me for being such a pessimist. There's maybe a certain hope of atonement for them even- if they finally realise how unhappy I truly was all this time. Plus- that some of them caused it initially.

What I would be more concerned with is the negative connections towards companies I've worked for. I'm not particularly well known though so, hopefully that will just be swept under the carpet.

I suppose there's always the concern that publicized suicides will legitimise the option to others. I wonder if suicides in families lead to more suicides. I'm not close to my family though. I doubt it would have much effect.

I suppose, being pro- choice myself though, I feel like it is an option we do have the right to take. Plus- I imagine it's only someone already massively unhappy and considering suicide anyway that is influenced by the news of other suicides.

Not that I think it's a healthy thing by any means but, I've also somewhat always had a strangely romanticised view of suicide in a way. For a long time, it's made sense to me that people can suffer to the extent that they want out of this world.

I suppose I see it as a headstrong, rebellious act too and, I'm quite a rebel at heart. Beyond trying to hold on so as not to hurt my loved ones- what am I actually staying alive for? To make money for people who are already rich effectively. Sorry but- f*ck that! I don't actually like this (human) world. I think it's massively corrupt. Why should I even want to remain a part of it?

 

[mold]

Where I live nothing really... happens? So every little thing tends to end up on the news, or someone knows something and it spreads like wildfire. I used to live in the US, so it was just bullshit left and right, and when I lived there I never thought about it, but since leaving I have a weird fear(?) that I'll end up on the news :-(

 

[Daphne]

When I was a journalism major, we were taught it was taboo to publicize suicides due to the copycat effect. This is in the U.S.