Discussion Which way you gonna do with ctb?

[Black Angel]

So which way you will choose?
My plan is changed, originally I'm planned to use charcoal, I have spent these days reading the entire thread about exit bag and inert gases, seems nitrogen is more appealing to me. Till now I have completed only one thing, I signed up the Patientenverfügung, so if you from Germany you know this is definitely worth to do, and this is something about living will, at least I don't have to worry if my brain is severely damaged, I won't be forced to live, this is very important for me, because I consider that my CTB methods are all about shutting down the brain, and I'm definitely doesn't want live as a vegetable.

So the next step I definitely need to buy my tank and some other accessories asap.
I know it's ridiculous I'm still here, my heart has already flown to paradise, but my body is still here like in hell…I know I shouldn't complain about anything since I chose to go, but this person is the last straw that broke me down.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish I had a way, all I hope for is a way to just never suffer ever again and I see so much cruelty in how that is denied for me with the suffering and torture of existing seen as to force and prolong no matter what instead, it's all just so dreadful and terrible to me. I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this cruel, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake and to me existing really is only suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I always suffer so much from being denied the option to cease existing painlessly as all I want is to never exist ever again, only the peace of non-existence is desirable for me.

 

[Black Angel]

I wish I had a way, all I hope for is a way to just never suffer ever again and I see so much cruelty in how that is denied for me with the suffering and torture of existing seen as to force and prolong no matter what instead, it's all just so dreadful and terrible to me. I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this cruel, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake and to me existing really is only suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I always suffer so much from being denied the option to cease existing painlessly as all I want is to never exist ever again, only the peace of non-existence is desirable for me.

I believe and I can feel your sense of helplessness just as how I feel. But in the end, we will all jump out of time, and no matter which way we do, we will find the peace that belongs to us, big big hug to you~