When do you plan to CTB?

[jodes2]

I'm thinking long term, technically I'm not all that suicidal right now, just fed up, but I can't imagine going through life without CTBing at some stage. Maybe when I'm old and have too many health problems or once every one around me has died.

What are you waiting for?

 

[Zegers]

There are some variables as to when i could obtain the method, mood, preparation, but i reckon it might be between next summer and Christmas '23

 

[hamvil]

I just joined this forum. I think I will take my time here, learn about possibly method and maybe later I will start my planning. For now I am happy I have found a place where I feel understood.

 

[Raskolnikov's Axe]

I don't know. I'm much more concerned about the method and succeeding then the possible time frame, tbh.

 

[Hollowillow]

When I'm bat shit desperate to die from pain? Been but didn't. Had no rope. Kinda tried a bag today, was humid like drowning... Eww ...

 

[thebunny]

planning to ctb within two months, just right after my birthday. by then, i'd have all the supplies i need and did all the things i needed to do. can't wait to finally be at peace and be happy.

 

[FuneralCry]

I don't know, suicide really isn't easy for me personally. It's frustrating how we live in a world where others want to make it as difficult for us to die as possible. If I had a peaceful and reliable way to exit I would already be gone but because I have limited access to methods, I will have to find a way to leave when I get so desperate and when things get much worse.

 

[Euthanza]

September 2024 if I'm lucky, latest 2026.

 

[Starry Starry]

It will take approximately one month (hoping before then) for my way to CTB will accomplish my goal. Hopefully it will happen before. I believe I have the perfect way (non painful) and peaceful way to go. I'm soooo looking forward to it. There are so many people who are so cruel to each other. "This world was never meant for one as beautiful as me." So true. I have a heart bigger than the world and have helped so many people. Ironically, the kindness has never been returned. Life takes too much effort at this point in time.

 

[👁️👃👁️]

It will take approximately one month (hoping before then) for my way to CTB will accomplish my goal. Hopefully it will happen before. I believe I have the perfect way (non painful) and peaceful way to go. I'm soooo looking forward to it. There are so many people who are so cruel to each other. "This world was never meant for one as beautiful as me." So true. I have a heart bigger than the world and have helped so many people. Ironically, the kindness has never been returned. Life takes too much effort at this point in time.

How's sweetpea?

 

[Hans Voralberg]

Till meds will be working i want live. Maybe i will be truly loved one day

 

[Starry Starry]

How's sweetpea?

How nice to be remembered!!! Thank you. Sweet Pea is wonderful. I have found a home for her after I'm gone so that is a huge relief. She has been such a patient little girl. How are you doing? I've really missed being on here but am apprehensive who I talk to.

 

[exitsimulation]

if anyone who know about drugs mainly pharmacuticals could please review my overdose mixture please domperidone+50 ml of BDO+400 xanax-phenobarbitol 20x100 mg tablets

 

[Astronauta]

Estou certo que preciso e vou fazer ctb. Já tenho SN agora é questão de oportunidade.
Espero fazer até outubro. Estou cansada de sentir dor e tristeza. Tem sido um ano terrível pra mim. Quero descansar.

 

[IfyouareamanWinston]

I'm giving myself until my lease ends next summer (so my roommates are not fucked over). If my husbands visa is not approved then probably just get rid of all my stuff and when the lease ends just go off to die.

 

[carnivore]

Soon

 

[Antiquated]

I'm thinking tomorrow

 

[Adamsnolife]

I'm thinking not long now after I was doing something that has been a total disaster. Don't think I'll be around much longer

 

[DeadSoul98]

Within the next half year. Hope to find the courage to do it sooner. Maybe together with someone

 

[brokensea]

It will take approximately one month (hoping before then) for my way to CTB will accomplish my goal. Hopefully it will happen before. I believe I have the perfect way (non painful) and peaceful way to go. I'm soooo looking forward to it. There are so many people who are so cruel to each other. "This world was never meant for one as beautiful as me." So true. I have a heart bigger than the world and have helped so many people. Ironically, the kindness has never been returned. Life takes too much effort at this point in time.

It's so true I think the kindest and best people are here. The world needs more good people but then it seems all your good deeds are wasted on crappy people who take advantage of it for their ends and throw it away. It's hard to live in this cruel world when you have a good heart. This world is a literal hell.
I was so ready to die before and made an attempt in an emotional moment and now for some reason logically looking everything up and thinking about it, so much is going on for me. I want to CTB after I get back from a trip in October I had planned a while back.

I keep having existential dread like how do I know dying is going to be better for me? What if it ends up being worse? What if there is no escape? What if I'm trapped in another nightmare? What if there's nothing I can do to make the pain go away?

My energy is also so low it's hard to think of getting up the energy to die. It seems simple but requires a lot of mental fortitude and mental energy I just don't even have.

Now I have all these struggles but it was so simple when I was emotional and fighting with my now ex and went to jump off a cliff.

Now I just have all these fears and thoughts holding me back. I just feel lost and don't know what to do

 

[dirtnap]

Depends. I'm ready now, just need to find a location. If I wait until May 2023 my insurance will payout to my family member.
I'm miserable and can barely get through each day so having the burden to wait until May further complicates my situation.

 

[jodes2]

It's sad how much of a rush everyone on this board is to CTB. No wonder it's so quiet these days here