Venting When basic needs also lose their meaning...

[Deleted member 17331]

I didn't eat for 27 hours yesterday, i didn't feel hungry... Then my stomach started to punish me. I prepared the food, but nothing tastes like it. I wondered what was most torturous, the pain in my stomach or the pain of not feeling anything when chewing.

Leaving my room to go to the bathroom is unpleasant, my bladder hurts and i don't have the strength to get out of bed.

It hurts a little not to have the strength to draw, I have inspirations and ideas... I can't. I just can't do it.

I am beginning to realize that no matter what I do, nothing will be special, nothing will make a difference within me.

I feel like I'm dead, and maybe I really am.

 

[Good4Nothing]

I feel like I'm already dead, too.
There's nothing inside me anymore.
No love, no enthusiasm, no energy.
I'm an empty shell, just breathing and working and sleeping and eating and shitting for... no reason.

 

[LenkaX]

I'm very depressed and in this state unfortunately my body wants to eat plenty of sugary foods and cakes etc. So I'm very fat and ugly.

 

[TheSoundofTime]

I didn't eat for 27 hours yesterday, i didn't feel hungry... Then my stomach started to punish me. I prepared the food, but nothing tastes like it. I wondered what was most torturous, the pain in my stomach or the pain of not feeling anything when chewing.

Leaving my room to go to the bathroom is unpleasant, my bladder hurts and i don't have the strength to get out of bed.

It hurts a little not to have the strength to draw, I have inspirations and ideas... I can't. I just can't do it.

I am beginning to realize that no matter what I do, nothing will be special, nothing will make a difference within me.

I feel like I'm dead, and maybe I really am.

We just became robots. Sorry you are feeling this way. You are in your bed, I still manage to work, but that's all.
I don't feel anything, I don't want anything, I don't care about stuff, I don't relate to anyone and just waiting until what's left from my brain to put the end to all of this.
Machine like me should be recycled into a fucking toaster (and a shitty one)

 

[Deleted member 17331]

I'm so sorry... If i could, i would give each of you a big hug.