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TimeTraveling4

TimeTraveling4

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May 14, 2025
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I think I'm going to give life a second chance. I tried the SN method with normal salt instead of SN

I got 50ml of water, added 25g of normal table salt to it and drank it to get a feel of what actual SN would be like.

It's really uncomfortable and it's deeply unpleasant. First off, it burns your throat as it goes down because of the salty taste. And right after, you feel like you should drink more water but you can't as that would ruin the protocol.

Secondly, it sits on your stomach. It's like you're suffering from indigestion. You can feel the salt in your stomach and there's nothing you can do about it. You can't eat anything to get rid of that uncomfortable sensation.

I planned on CTB with sodium nitrite but considering how uncomfortable I was with normal table salt, the real thing would be much worse. I still haven't drunk anything else and the uncomfortable feelings fade but with SN, you'll likely be throwing up and having to drink more after unless you are on strong enough antiemetics.

I hope anyone with the willpower to do this has a test run with normal water and salt first to see what it feels like. It's not as pleasant as it was in my head.
 
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fitoo5999

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Well, how say that killing yourself was supposed to be easy?
 
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dirkw83

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Yeah I'm not gonna be worried about feeling some discomfort in my stomache when I'm literally trying to get off this planet. There are definitely scary things about SN but this isn't it by far..
 
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Serena 2026

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Jan 15, 2026
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I think I'm going to give life a second chance. I tried the SN method with normal salt instead of SN

I got 50ml of water, added 25g of normal table salt to it and drank it to get a feel of what actual SN would be like.

It's really uncomfortable and it's deeply unpleasant. First off, it burns your throat as it goes down because of the salty taste. And right after, you feel like you should drink more water but you can't as that would ruin the protocol.

Secondly, it sits on your stomach. It's like you're suffering from indigestion. You can't feel the salt in your stomach and there's nothing you can do about it. You can't eat anything to get rid of that uncomfortable sensation.

I planned on CTB with sodium nitrite but considering how uncomfortable I was with normal table salt, the real thing would be much worse. I still haven't drunk anything else and the uncomfortable feelings fade but with SN, you'll likely be throwing up and having to drink more after unless you are on strong enough antiemetics.

I hope anyone with the willpower to do this has a test run with normal water and salt first to see what it feels like. It's not as pleasant as it was in my head.
I understand how you feel, and I would also like to do a test run beforehand with N, which is the one in my protocol. That would be impossible in my case, though, because I have the exact amount needed for the CTB and can't afford to waste any on testing. However, you might be able to do another test by applying an anesthetic spray to your tongue first—what do you think? That's what I'm going to do for my protocol. Forgive my ignorance, but couldn't you eat a small piece of chocolate at the end to improve the taste in your mouth—or maybe a lollipop? I plan to do that at the end of my protocol, since they say the taste of N is worse than SN! 😬🫤
 
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TimeTraveling4

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May 14, 2025
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I understand how you feel, and I would also like to do a test run beforehand with N, which is the one in my protocol. That would be impossible in my case, though, because I have the exact amount needed for the CTB and can't afford to waste any on testing. However, you might be able to do another test by applying an anesthetic spray to your tongue first—what do you think? That's what I'm going to do for my protocol. Forgive my ignorance, but couldn't you eat a small piece of chocolate at the end to improve the taste in your mouth—or maybe a lollipop? I plan to do that at the end of my protocol, since they say the taste of N is worse than SN! 😬🫤
I don't want to eat after ingesting Sodium nitrite in case it ruins the protocol. Anesthesic spray doesn't help I feel like. My main issue is the throat burning and upset stomach.

You could try a salt water test to see what it would feel like. And what is N? Is it something you mix into water like Sodium nitrite?
 
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Serena 2026

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Jan 15, 2026
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I don't want to eat after ingesting Sodium nitrite in case it ruins the protocol. Anesthesic spray doesn't help I feel like. My main issue is the throat burning and upset stomach.

You could try a salt water test to see what it would feel like. And what is N? Is it something you mix into water like Sodium nitrite?
I see; our protocols differ—in mine, I'm allowed to eat a piece of chocolate after the procedure... "N" stands for Nembutal, and you take it straight, without water... but tell me, have you tried using an anesthetic spray? The only reason I don't try the method you used is that it isn't part of my protocol, and I think it would make me feel nauseous! 🤢
 
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Jul 7, 2026
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I understand how you feel, and I would also like to do a test run beforehand with N, which is the one in my protocol. That would be impossible in my case, though, because I have the exact amount needed for the CTB and can't afford to waste any on testing. However, you might be able to do another test by applying an anesthetic spray to your tongue first—what do you think? That's what I'm going to do for my protocol. Forgive my ignorance, but couldn't you eat a small piece of chocolate at the end to improve the taste in your mouth—or maybe a lollipop? I plan to do that at the end of my protocol, since they say the taste of N is worse than SN! 😬🫤
Can I ask if you got N from a clearnet or darknet source?
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
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BE VERY CAREFUL DOING THIS. Table salt can kill you. It is a long and slow death and does not take much salt at all (a few tablespoons).

OP, sorry it was a bad experience for you but I am glad it may have given you pause to think about things.
 
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Feb 11, 2024
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I think I'm going to give life a second chance. I tried the SN method with normal salt instead of SN

I got 50ml of water, added 25g of normal table salt to it and drank it to get a feel of what actual SN would be like.

It's really uncomfortable and it's deeply unpleasant. First off, it burns your throat as it goes down because of the salty taste. And right after, you feel like you should drink more water but you can't as that would ruin the protocol.

Secondly, it sits on your stomach. It's like you're suffering from indigestion. You can feel the salt in your stomach and there's nothing you can do about it. You can't eat anything to get rid of that uncomfortable sensation.

I planned on CTB with sodium nitrite but considering how uncomfortable I was with normal table salt, the real thing would be much worse. I still haven't drunk anything else and the uncomfortable feelings fade but with SN, you'll likely be throwing up and having to drink more after unless you are on strong enough antiemetics.

I hope anyone with the willpower to do this has a test run with normal water and salt first to see what it feels like. It's not as pleasant as it was in my head.
Thanks for sharing this observation. It'll give the SN aspirers some idea to be prepared for beforehand if they choose this path
 
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TimeTraveling4

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I see; our protocols differ—in mine, I'm allowed to eat a piece of chocolate after the procedure... "N" stands for Nembutal, and you take it straight, without water... but tell me, have you tried using an anesthetic spray? The only reason I don't try the method you used is that it isn't part of my protocol, and I think it would make me feel nauseous! 🤢
I see. So N is the liquid itself. Thanks for clarifying. I haven't tried anesthetic spray. I don't think it'd be worth the effort. I agree, if it has nothing to do with your protocol then don't do it.
 
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Serena 2026

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Jan 15, 2026
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Can I ask if you got N from a clearnet or darknet source?
I went to Peru to buy it; online, there are only fake sellers trying to take advantage of desperate people. I was naive and almost fell for one of their pitches—it didn't work out only because they wanted payment in cryptocurrency and I didn't even know how to do that, so I gave up—luckily for me!