Venting I am the most pathetic human to disgrace this earth

[Guttertrash]

To preface; I am sorry for anyone inconvenienced to reading these ramblings.

I'm so tired,
I have never the strength to live or the strength to die. I want to fly as close to the sun as possible, but I can never be like the stars I look up to. I would do anything for you and the world I could, but I cannot do anything in this life of mine. I am a horrid, shitty excuse for a woman.

I have never had friends, and I am destitute of family. I was never meant to be born foremost. I am, sincerely, nothing more than repugnant. I have nothing to offer to this world, not a body, not in art nor eloquence. My endearment has only become incorrigible over time; I can no longer communicate as a regular human. I have rotted over---become bitter and abrasive. I have become deathly afraid of people, it's so painful.

Medication has given no relief. It has only stilted me---not that I have the coin to accommodate it. My ups and downs only drag me back in passing. Therapy has provided me no further clarity alike.

The ugliest angels were never good for the world; I deserve to die. Nothing can abjure me of my frailty.

please wish me happy birthday

 

[tonicer]

I think you are good at writing. English is just me second language so my vocabulary is naturally a bit limited but you use words i had to look up. :)

I wish you a Happy birthday and hope you find peace somehow.

 

[franzkafka]

happy birthday. U are loved

 

[ctb_warrior]

To preface; I am sorry for anyone inconvenienced to reading these ramblings.

I'm so tired,
I have never the strength to live or the strength to die. I want to fly as close to the sun as possible, but I can never be like the stars I look up to. I would do anything for you and the world I could, but I cannot do anything in this life of mine. I am a horrid, shitty excuse for a woman.

I have never had friends, and I am destitute of family. I was never meant to be born foremost. I am, sincerely, nothing more than repugnant. I have nothing to offer to this world, not a body, not in art nor eloquence. My endearment has only become incorrigible over time; I can no longer communicate as a regular human. I have rotted over---become bitter and abrasive. I have become deathly afraid of people, it's so painful.

Medication has given no relief. It has only stilted me---not that I have the coin to accommodate it. My ups and downs only drag me back in passing. Therapy has provided me no further clarity alike.

The ugliest angels were never good for the world; I deserve to die. Nothing can abjure me of my frailty.

please wish me happy birthday

Happy birthday dear
I'm so sorry you've had to go through this but you are home now.. we are all here with you. You have friends here

 

[whorror]

I wish you a happy brithday you are among friends here that know what is like to feel like this. i also relate to what you said and i'm sorry you are going through this pain

 

[Baka]

You are offering something, and it's the words you share with us. Eloquently and beautifully written, even if depressingly relatable. That is a form of art. happy birthday <3

 

[SuicideWebsiteUsern]

I hope something gives you joy or you have atleast a little bit of fun today
Happy birthday to you

 

[Guttertrash]

I hope something gives you joy or you have atleast a little bit of fun today
Happy birthday to you

Thank you for the birds, I hope I can fly as high as them one day ♡

 

[lostinthecha0s]

Happy birthday
You bring light to someone's day, even if your own mind is full of darkness, you provide the light for someone else which is so beautiful, like you, you are beautiful. I know it's hard and we struggle, but take your special day and I hope you feel special even if for a second.

 

[infinitesimal]

happy birthday! i hope youre able to do something fun for yourself, you deserve it… its a right for every being, human or not to experience some sort of joy in their lives. sasu was always meant to voice out the feelings thatd make outsiders uncomfortable, here you dont have to censor yourself. your words are beautiful ♡ much love and well wishes on your journey

 

[Spite]

Happy birthday darling. I'm sorry you're feeling this way right now. Honestly I sometimes say the same things to myself. I have no friends either and I know how painful that can feel. I hope things look up for you soon, especially on your special day. <3

 

[SuicideWebsiteUsern]

Thank you for the birds, I hope I can fly as high as them one day ♡

same i really wish reincarnation is not a thing but if it is make me a bird in my next life please

 

[itsgone2]

The ugliest angels were never good for the world; I deserve to die. Nothing can abjure me of my frailty.

Well said. It hurts though, to be part of it. An ugly angel that deserves to die.

 

[monkeyfff]

I am the most pathetic human to disgrace this earth

Wait a minute that is my line!

But on a serious note, I am truly sorry that this world is letting you suffer like this. Everything just feels hopeless and you feel powerless. I haven't lived your experiences, but I am trying to understand.

Happy birthday