What's the one thing you wanna do or happen before CTB?

[SR20DET]

I wanna play my favorite game for the last time

 

[deepocean]

Probably wanna hear specific things...

 

[overload]

I am thinking of sending a letter to the family of someone I met on this forum, someone with whom I shared a short but extremely deep bond. She CTBed two weeks ago. What we had was something between a friendship and something more — hard to define, but very real.

I don't know if it'll be possible though.

 

[jazzcat621]

Travel the country, preferably by rv. I wanna meet friends, see sites, and meet new people before I die.

 

[Ezrazzle]

Quit my job, travel to a few places I want and live peacefully playing games and relaxing until the money is gone. Would be a nice little deadline.

 

[JimBob500]

I want to leave all of my assets in my suicide note for the family I'm renting a room from to apologise for upsetting them with my dead body.

Also, I want to take a double dose of Xanax so I feel very relaxed when I pass (and can actually go through with it).

 

[h6rrscher]

What's the one thing you wanna do or happen before CTB?
I am very shameful about what I want to do before dying, cause the answer is sex, I don't think I am incapable of getting sex, but my mental state and problems in life, makes me incapable of even thinking about a relationship.

I want to talk to specific toxic members of my family who have hurt me all my life and not hold back at all on speaking my feelings to them. I've always been too scared to speak on how I feel because everyone in my life just invalidates me when I try and victimises themselves but since I know I'm going to be dying it won't matter anymore. Also want to tell my mother and grandmother I don't believe in the stupid religion they've tried to force onto me all my life although I feel that my mother already knows this