what year do you miss?

[dune7263]

I miss the early 2010s

 

[Griever]

I miss the year my best friend was still alive and I could have prevented her suicide

 

[StupidCat]

I miss 2012,felt like the peak of my life for some stupid reason.

 

[DivineSpark]

2002, I got my own PC at that time. I was able to enjoy gaming so much! Thinking about those games gives me such feelings of nostalgia!

 

[The Unanswered Q]

2018, was last time was happy.

 

[SmilingNoMore]

Last year, the best and worst year ever. I realised too late I was losing my person. If only I could redo it, the hell of this year would not be happening.

 

[Forever Sleep]

The weird thing is, none of them to be honest! I've had better times than others of course. Maybe the second half of 2018 was good in terms of work focus. I think I had gallstone trouble back then though, so that certainly wasn't good.

I suppose that's what strikes me about life though really. That it's all been a slog pretty much. There were nicer bits sprinkled in but, none really made up for the ongoing shit of it all! I suppose that's what makes me feel confident that this is just what life is. So, it makes me feel confident about the wish to leave it at least.

 

[encore]

if i could choose a year to stay in forever, it would probably be 2024 or the second half of 2023. in 2023, i was completely isolated and alone but ive never been in as much peace with myself and life. nobody to bother me, nobody to break my heart, and it was the last time i could truly feel okay.

in 2024, i met my first true love and while our relationship was at times rough, losing it affected me more than anything else i've ever lost. i just want to go back to being blissfully unaware and in love.

 

[Forveleth]

20...11? I think. I had just gotten my shit together, had a good job, was feeling confident. I will stick with the first half of 2011 as I met my asshole partner that summer and it all went to hell.

 

[FuneralCry]

I don't miss anything about this cruel, torturous existence rather I wish I never suffered at all, if it's up to me I'd choose to permanently erase my existence as I'll just always see existence as the most terrible, dreadful abomination that just causes harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'll just always find it so deeply undesirable to exist. For me non-existence really is all that's desirable and is all that's positive, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, I'm so tired of being burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it.

 

[broken_stoic]

2019. I was living overseas. Also just after I started EMDR just before covid hit.

 

[Haematemesis]

2004
just before i was conceived

 

[WhiteRabbit]

2007. I was 21 and spending a lot of time at the beach, long before any health problems.

 

[patheticparasite]

1993. I miss my childhood and the friends I had before everything went to hell.

 

[tsumihoroboshi]

Mostly 2008--itwas the last time I was around humans in an everyday sense because I dropped out right there and lost contact with anyone that had been willing to put up with me. I've been living in a void since. One long, monotonous void waiting with failed attempts at dying, failed attempts at living.

I guess also 2012 was the genuine last time it felt like things could go upwards. It did... for the shortest while possible. Downhill. It always goes downhill.

But both of those times were just full of smaller moments where it seemed like things could've been okay though the constant was the nagging nothingness instead. I guess I just romanticise the "better" times even if it really wasn't all that different at least there were people around, even if for a short moment.

 

[weallhaveourghosts]

2023 I was fairly happy. Had a partner, friends, good job, etc. Would go back and do a lot differently but alas.

 

[Dejected 55]

I miss 1969. That was the last year before I existed.

 

[LetMeOut67]

Late 1970s early 80s

 

[sadpigeon]

i never really had a particularly good year, but i do miss 2013. i was just a little boy who didn't know much about how cruel the world was, fnaf was trending and i was at my happiest. this was before all of my terrible dysmorphia and anxiety began

 

[loser4ever4life]

Mostly 2008--itwas the last time I was around humans in an everyday sense because I dropped out right there and lost contact with anyone that had been willing to put up with me. I've been living in a void since. One long, monotonous void waiting with failed attempts at dying, failed attempts at living.

I guess also 2012 was the genuine last time it felt like things could go upwards. It did... for the shortest while possible. Downhill. It always goes downhill.

But both of those times were just full of smaller moments where it seemed like things could've been okay though the constant was the nagging nothingness instead. I guess I just romanticise the "better" times even if it really wasn't all that different at least there were people around, even if for a short moment.

Hey, don't want to seem rude, but how have you been able to stick around this long? i'm facing a similar situation right now and don't know how to continue forward

 

[SchizoGymnast]

2015 was bangin' for me.

I also miss 2001-2006 and the early 1990s.

 

[inverse-weibull]

I miss 2020 the most I think. I know covid was really awful and lockdown was terrible for most people. But it was really nice to just be free of responsibilities completely for once. I mean it was over a month of no school, what more could a high schooler want. No worrying about college or jobs. Just playing animal crossing and Minecraft with my friends.

 

[astonishedturnip]

2008 - early 2012 was a good run. Emo music reigned supreme, I had all my best friends around me every day, and I stayed up until the wee hours with video games, fanfiction, and hanging out with my friends. School was a cakewalk and had lots of time to devote to hobbies. I looked like a dog in school, but it was OK, I had all these romantic dreams and crushes and reasons for getting out of bed every morning. College, careers and adult life were far away. My grandpa was here. My parents were young. My siblings and I all lived together and hung out regularly. Ugh, I'm sure there were tons of frustrations in the moment. But nostalgia is a major factor in my depression.

 

[DarknessAtNoon]

1452. Everything went to shit after Constantinople fell.

 

[tsumihoroboshi]

Hey, don't want to seem rude, but how have you been able to stick around this long? i'm facing a similar situation right now and don't know how to continue forward

It's very mostly the fact I've had many failed attempts that I haven't tried attempting again recently. I'm only still here because I'm still looking for an actually lethal way out, it's just not as easy given my position.