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diy-event

Student
Nov 16, 2024
146
For me is really understanding my method. If I know what can go wrong I can anticipate it to push past it or correct for it

A quiet place that would not rush me. If I want to take a day to reach the edge that is fine

The constant knowledge it's my choice. I can back out at any time

A kind soul to accompany me or at least say a few words of support.

The final day is coming soon.
 
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CatLvr

Enlightened
Aug 1, 2024
1,350
If the only 4 people I love (and have made promises to), and who love me, were gone. Not likely because they are not from the same family, and a couple of them are quite young.
 
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NoPoint2Life

Why is this so hard?
Aug 31, 2024
770
A magical pill
 
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j.rez729

Banned
Nov 8, 2024
93
A kill pill which they give to cancer patients but not to people with other forms of illness like depression. They don't respect autonomy so they don't offer it to all consenting adults as should be the case. I watched a woman on YouTube with pancreatic cancer take it - they recommend taking it with ice cream because it's so toxic it burns your mouth and throat. Within 5 minutes she was asleep then gone. No pain, just a peaceful exit. I can only dream...
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,712
If I had access to a peaceful, painless method that lead to guaranteed death with no risks of trying to die going wrong and leading to way worse torture, if I had access to such it'd be so relieving and bring me peace from all futile unnecessary suffering in this existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway. All I wish for is the option to simply cease existing in peace as I find it deeply undesirable to exist in every way possible, I'd never wish for the cruelty and suffering of existing and it just feels so horrible to me how the option of painless death is denied with suffering seen as always to force and prolong instead, I'd never wish to suffer in this existence, nothing would make me wish for this existence that I see as causing nothing but suffering until death takes away all anyway.
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,796
Access to a peaceful method as well as access to an environment where nobody would bother the hell out of me for a few hours
 
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orbwithinorb

Member
Aug 4, 2024
59
Like everyone said, I just want a method that is actually peaceful.
 
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TheHolySword

TheHolySword

empty heart
Nov 22, 2024
1,082
If I had no loved ones, that's the most difficult thing for me.
 
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divinemistress36

divinemistress36

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,722
Knowing that the method would be 100% succesful
 
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CogitoMori

PM if you'd like my discord to chat more easily
Oct 21, 2024
418
Money :/
 
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Lo$t95

Lo$t95

Hello Darkness my old Friend
Jul 16, 2024
267
I don't mean to sound insensitive it's just my thoughts but I feel like a gun makes everything so simple. Like you just literally pull the trigger…

Asides from magic pills and nembutal etc a gun is just point at the right place and shoot. I don't know what I am missing. The SI is mostly gone and you can do it from the comfort of your own home (if you live alone ig).

Sorry it this pissed anyone off.
 
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John_Galt

John_Galt

Banned
Jan 2, 2025
32
I reliable method, A good destination, Including a CTB partner to ward off Survival Instinct and of course; Success
 
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thronesick

thronesick

i am a hive walking
Jan 2, 2025
56
just a peaceful method i don't want to suffer any more than i have in life so why dying? i just want something that will kill me but wouldn't actually feel my lungs or organs collapsing as well. I thought about death on impact I wanted to think that that if i jumped out a window then i would faint midway ugh i just can't even imagine feeling that and also like knowing once you take that step off the twelve floor you're fucking done and if you survive that you're a vegetable and a stranger to your own body
 
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beseechgod

beseechgod

Student
Dec 7, 2024
133
Like you said, really understanding the method. That's why I've been researching as much as possible. Also having the house to myself for a few days, a week would be ideal.
 
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SoulWhisperer

SoulWhisperer

Severe Medical Phobia « MtF »
Nov 13, 2023
549
What could? A shotgun probably... Sigh...
 
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hardcorebisnis

hardcorebisnis

love addict
Jan 2, 2025
17
not being raised in a religious family, the question "but what if there is an afterlife" in which i'd be doomed to suffer punishments for all my sins..
if i was athiest i'd be long gone by now tbh
 
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Gone soon

Gone soon

Guy who likes wearing womens' clothes
Jun 11, 2024
169
Knowing that I won't suffer too much during the dying process. And maybe having someone by my side
 
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Daxter777

Daxter777

Student
May 22, 2023
114
Probably getting N which is a pipe dream. Ive got SN but it scares the shit out of me. Not everyones experience sounds the same on it. I honestly wish for something like N where i just get tired, sleep and pass.
 
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Namelesa

Namelesa

Global Mod · Trapped in this Suffering
Sep 21, 2024
1,954
For me to even have access to an effective method. I can't buy anything or go anywhere outside cus of my parent's trapping and restricting me so I only have access to what I have in the house. I tried partial hanging but my anchor point broke so I am stuck being trapped in this hellish existence.
 
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FindingVeritas

FindingVeritas

Member
Jan 1, 2025
21
I just want a guarantee that my final wishes will be respected. If I could afford an executor to avoid unnecessary pain I would, but right now I'm focusing on saving. I need to pay off most of my debt and then I'm going to pre-purchase (or at least have the cash set aside for) everything I need for a green burial. I don't care if it hurts, but the idea that I wouldn't traumatize anyone with body recovery/my departure would help me truly go in peace.
 
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Hollow_Man

Hollow_Man

Sarlic
Jan 2, 2025
2
There's just no actually peaceful method available, I can't get a gun in my country, and it might be easier finding fairy dust than actual N.
 
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diy-event

Student
Nov 16, 2024
146
I looked through the postings about what would make things easier for you; I was surprised there was really no mention of having a human close to you.

A kind soul to accompany me or at least say a few words of support would probably be something I prefer than increased confidence in a method.

In the end, the human touch or a witness or someone accompanying me to calm my nerves, to help me stand up against SI, and feel I have the right to do what I am doing is what I'd want.

I want someone to accompany me!
 
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theshund

Student
Jan 1, 2025
107
If I could get my hands on a big canister of nitrogen. Here in the UK it's almost impossible (for me). I don't have a truck to transport it and regulations means I can't just lie it in the footwell in back of my car. I can't have it delivered either as they want a business address and couldn't explain such a delivery to those I live with.

If none of these things were issues I'd be long gone by now.
Probably getting N which is a pipe dream. Ive got SN but it scares the shit out of me. Not everyones experience sounds the same on it. I honestly wish for something like N where i just get tired, sleep and pass.
I'm so jealous of people who lived in the 50s and 60s when N was as common as air. They didn't know what they had.
 
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ugly777

Member
Jan 1, 2025
12
For me is really understanding my method. If I know what can go wrong I can anticipate it to push past it or correct for it

A quiet place that would not rush me. If I want to take a day to reach the edge that is fine

The constant knowledge it's my choice. I can back out at any time

A kind soul to accompany me or at least say a few words of support.

The final day is coming soon.
Ideally, a quick, easy and painless method.
 
ShatteredSerenity

ShatteredSerenity

I talk to God, but the sky is empty.
Nov 24, 2024
676
I want euthanasia. Then a doctor would provide the best means available, and also ensure that I'm dead as a doornail at the end of it. It would also help me feel better to do it in a more open way so my loved ones could be more at peace with it, maybe I'd even have some of them with me.
 
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Hotsackage

Enlightened
Mar 11, 2019
1,148
Whatever funeralcry says
 
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Pryras

Last hope
Feb 11, 2020
621
Comfort would make ctb much harder so what would make it easier for me would be intense grief, isolation and pain.
 
cowboypants

cowboypants

From milkyway
May 7, 2024
478
I don't want to pass on more trauma on to my sibling, we already had enough with our narc parents. But i didn't ask to be born there is that.

I am still unsure whether my method will work or will I be found too soon, i don't like this uncertainty much.

And I need a bit more exposure socially to carry my plan out. It's intimidating to deal with people at this point, for me my anxiety is a lot worse
 
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onetimereject

onetimereject

Living the life of a problem
Jun 18, 2023
32
If someone agree with me that i shouldn't live
 
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SadRatQueen

SadRatQueen

Professional Crybaby
Dec 27, 2024
62
There are a few things I want to do before I go. Such as paying back the people I owe along with making sure my room is completely spotless. I also want to make sure that my father has no rights to my body after my death, as I can't expect him to respect me let alone even know me to throw a proper wake for those who do.

A truly nonpainful peaceful method would also be nice.
 

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