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E4syW3y0u7

E4syW3y0u7

Wasted it all.
May 19, 2026
208
It sounds like a life-defining experience. Was it a sexual relationship?
I don't know if that is important. But there was whirlwind of love, lust and affection for sure.

It was more than that but...yeah it was part of it...

Sometimes i wish it wasn't and it could have been platonic...she could have been my best friend for sure, clicked so well, seemed unreal, it was just a dream probably...a dream that turned into a nightmare...

But it's all my fault and the guilt is feasting on my feeble mind, hence why i'm here...

I wish our bond was unbreakable like diamond...i wish i could go back in time...

Or maybe it was all a lie...and like a fool i want it again...
 
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Ashu

Ashu

novelist, sanskritist, Canadian living in India
Nov 13, 2021
964
I don't know if that is important. But there was whirlwind of love, lust and affection for sure.

It was more than that but...yeah it was part of it...

Sometimes i wish it wasn't and it could have been platonic...she could have been my best friend for sure, clicked so well, seemed unreal, it was just a dream probably...a dream that turned into a nightmare...

But it's all my fault and the guilt is feasting on my feeble mind, hence why i'm here...

I wish our bond was unbreakable like diamond...i wish i could go back in time...
I know the feeling.
 
Green Destiny

Green Destiny

Life isn't worth the trouble.
Nov 16, 2019
922
Probably High school when me and my friends just hung out smoking Hookah and or Weed for hours into late nights, playing video games, walking to the local grocery store. Even went to a nice cabin in the mountains one year with them and some of their parents to hike and fish. The most care free and fun I had were those few years.
 
memento-mori

memento-mori

😴
Jul 1, 2025
387
when i was just a child but most recently from when i was 12/13-15
 
U

urgent

Why do I have to suffer unbearably! HELP PLEASE!
Dec 6, 2025
296
My late 20s was okay, 1994,1995, then I got my first autoimmune disease and each year got worse. 2017 had cancer after treatment my body has broken down and is in severe pain physically, mentally and emotionally
 
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Hystearical

Hystearical

I just want to die
Jul 23, 2022
4,996
The super narrow window between the big bang and the millisecond before my conception
 
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InversedShadow

InversedShadow

Specialist
Dec 28, 2023
305
Likely 2015-2018, so my middle school years, 2013 was pretty good too, and then probably some parts of my childhood. but the middle school period is the one I like looking back on the most..
 
Surek

Surek

Peaceful
Aug 26, 2025
109
I think childhood, until around 12 or 13. No one put any wild expectations on you...
 
passthisnote

passthisnote

Member
May 6, 2026
10
fall 2024, the start of my senior year of hs. that was before i remembered it only gets worse from there on out.
 
H

hiiiii

Member
Aug 27, 2023
24
2021-2023! i moved to a major city for school and was living away from family for the first tike in my life. i did keep a lot of my crazy person hermit behaviors so i was extremely socially isolated, but i didn't know how good i had it in that moment! i loved the cinephile/film scene in the city so much. i also really liked having access to actually good restaurants and food. i miss it, but i don't think i can weasel my way back into the city as an entry level worker :(
 
boyafraid

boyafraid

Is life over yet?
Oct 27, 2025
113
Hmm that's a good question

For me it would have to be elementary school years. That's before I went through all my traumatic experiences (:
 
SuicidalFailure

SuicidalFailure

Anxiety Disorder
Apr 28, 2026
12
When I was in my first and only relationship last year, I felt like I was at my absolute peak: happy, capable of anything, and confident in myself and my future. And then she grew distant and left me for a "friend I shouldn't worry about." Ultimately, this is what drove me to become suicidal and triggered a downward spiral that mentally destroyed me, along with everything I had built over the past few years, and I have lost my trust in the world and in people. I mean, I've always been a melancholic person with depressive tendencies, yet I still wanted to live, even though life seemed gray. A relationship filled it with color, giving me a sense of purpose and true happiness, but then all of that was taken away from me, and I was left with nothing.
 
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NamelessEntity

NamelessEntity

My autism brings all the cat lore to the yard.
Jul 22, 2024
46
2012
Everything is just gloomy now. I would do anything to get my health back and be out of my abusive relationship.
 
Tomorrow Is Today

Tomorrow Is Today

don’t get any big ideas
May 16, 2026
35
2022. Lots of self discovery, cool stuff, romance and that kind of thing. It's that transitional period where I could be ignorant to a lot of things and just have fun. A lot of traumatic experiences followed that and it's just not the same anymore haha
 
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vexana

vexana

life is just a passing illusion
May 30, 2026
8
probably when i was a baby, under 3 years old since i couldn't even remember any of it 🤷‍♀️
 
Pvnie

Pvnie

Giga-autist Wandering Scumbag
Oct 8, 2022
20
when I was a kid who just discovered the internet, and all I did was play games and shit.
 

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