Venting Relationship and sh

[aroll]

I'm in a healthy and happy relationship with my boyfriend. But I despise him for not allowing me to cut. It's pretty reasonable of course, but I can't help but be upset with him all the time now. I miss cutting, it helps me so much when I'm feeling awful (and it's been hard these last few months), and now that I stopped I'm irritated at everything and everyone. I should talk to him about it, but I'm petty that he doesn't see it himself.

I don't think I'm healed enough for a healthy relationship.