what physical illnesses do you have?

[nothingbutyou]

What physical illnesses or chronic health conditions besides mental ills have affected your mental state to the point of making you think about suicide or lose the desire to continue living?
How have pain, disability, exhaustion, or loss of independence affected the way you see life?

 

[whitetaildeer]

I have fibromyalgia; it developed after an extremely traumatic event when I was a teenager, and ever since then, the chronic pain has gotten worse and worse. It's like having multiple dull cramps, spread across your body (typically joints for me), that never, ever go away, and if you get stressed out over one thing for too long, then tough shit, because then those cramps are going to hurt a million times more. Typically after at least one traumatic or highly stressful event, the pain will permanently get worse as well, with varying intensities.

I've tried telling myself throughout the years that I have a chance to live a fulfilling life, and that this won't be able to take away my dreams, but given just how bad things are for me right now, I don't know how plausible that is. Doing anything that isn't sitting on my ass at a desk all day hurts. Fuck, even that hurts to an extent. I can ignore the pain all I want, but it's getting harder and harder to do that, and I don't know how much longer I can feasibly do so.

This isn't even considering the constant brain fog, which can also get worse depending on how stressed I am. This is the symptom that makes me feel the most hopeless. I've never felt so dumb and useless. Life feels like a constant slog. You forget very basic vocabulary; you forget how to form a single coherent thought in your brain; you sometimes forget how to live like an ordinary person at all. Maybe a thought comes, but then it immediately goes, and you won't remember having it, only that you had a thought that was probably important, but it's gone and you aren't remembering it. And you're just so, so fucking tired. Too tired and unmotivated to do anything at all. Even if you wanted to do something, your body and brain won't cooperate with you, so you'll be stuck in a limbo, wondering why you're like this and if you're truly so worthless that you can't even do something so simple as eating or enjoying your hobbies.

 

[whisperedaway]

Mold illness gives me severe fatigue, cognitive decline, mood issues and other things... When I overexert myself my body and brain shut down and that's when I feel most suicidal, just wanting a way out. Living alone and being unable to complete normal tasks is difficult. People around me are accomplishing so many things while I barely get through the day. It really diminishes self-worth when you feel like you cannot live up to standards, both internal and external. I've tried various things to get better and it's like I hit a dead end. So, this really fosters a hopeless feeling.

 

[peacebenow]

Mold illness gives me severe fatigue, cognitive decline, mood issues and other things... When I overexert myself my body and brain shut down and that's when I feel most suicidal, just wanting a way out. Living alone and being unable to complete normal tasks is difficult. People around me are accomplishing so many things while I barely get through the day. It really diminishes self-worth when you feel like you cannot live up to standards, both internal and external. I've tried various things to get better and it's like I hit a dead end. So, this really fosters a hopeless feeling.

I have dealt with toxic mold illness and colonization for so much of my life I cant even count anymore and also including currently. It's one of a zillion of my physical health issues and yes, it's hell. Btw- whatever happened with your package? I remember your username etc.

 

[uklad38]

I've got sarcoidosis, spent nearly a month in hospital last year.

I was never as bad as I am now mentally until I got this.

Some days I can't even get out of bed and I don't know if it's the sarcoidosis or my mental state.

 

[whisperedaway]

I have dealt with toxic mold illness and colonization for so much of my life I cant even count anymore and also including currently. It's one of a zillion of my physical health issues and yes, it's hell. Btw- whatever happened with your package? I remember your username etc.

Omg yes mold illness is so insidious, so hard to recover from. I've had my house remediated, on a bunch of supplements but feel like I am going downhill... Also it's really not properly recognized in the medical community. Sorry to hear you're suffering from that along with other illnesses.

My package has been stuck in the same spot in U* since 1st of May so I'm assuming it's lost.... I think I read that you reordered yours? I may do that eventually, maybe order a smaller amount.

 

[thelostautistic]

I was diagnosed with Endometriosis in 2024 and it's really impacting me mentally now. My pain and fatigue are getting worse so it's making everyday tasks difficult. It's very miserable being in constant pain.

 

[DeadManLiving]

TBI & Cervical