Discussion What helps you distract yourself from being upset

[Die.A.Ria]

Like for me whenever i think about ctb like me having everything i need and doing it , it calms me so much and makes me happy but sometimes it does the opposite because i sometimes think about how the people i love will react and how it will change their lives and i feel really upset and guilty

every single day i feel upset and most of the time i dont know why and if i do know why like if i feel guilty about something and im trying to do my everyday tasks and then i remember something upsetting or embarrassing i hit myself really hard in between my rib cage near my heart because thats where it hurts extremelyy bad so i can distract myself

I started doing that once i stopped self harming because some people noticed it and i just want to wear what i want without it being obvious i self harm

I hate how i feel this way everyday that i remember these things and i cant stop randomly thinking about it whenever im doing something

I even stopped doing things i loved and was known for like drawing. everyone knew how talented i was at art and thats what i was known for but now i stopped doing it even though i kind of want to but i dont feel like it at all and even if i do i know those thoughts and memories will come back idk maybe i should listen to music while doing it but even then i dont feel like doing anything :(