What are you sorry for?

[MsM3talGamer]

Oh, no! I'm so sorry. If you don't mind my asking, what happened?

It's a very long story but she's the reason I have incurable cancer now. She misdiagnosed me and messed my body up. I can't even sue her because of the crappy country where I live. I hope she rots in the bowels of hell.

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

I'm kind of a dick IRL, prickly and irritable all the time. I dislike that about myself but feel powerless to change it. I also hate that I've let myself get to the point I'm at now, hopelessly and helpless, and still receiving financial assistance from my family and girlfriend. It's very embarrassing to not have my life in basic order, and to still have my parents worrying about me as they approach retirement age. I have also been a real asshole to certain girls in my past. I used to have major problems conducting myself decently and controlling my mood, with outbursts of anger to go with it. I have also been pretty bad at times with infidelity and desiring other girls.

I am sorry for all these things.

 

[mattwitt]

I'm sorry I didn't take the job the Air Force recruiter offered me.

 

[NumbItAll]

I'm sorry for being born and for not killing myself a long time ago. If I do kill myself, then I'm sorry for hurting people close to me. I'm sorry the universe is so shitty.

 

[CuriousAboutThis]

What do you mean by our kind?

The suicidal wish appreciate death but also appreciate life.

 

[Pulpit2018]

I am sorry for being distracted for too many years.Too distracted to see how much piece of shit this world really is.
I am sorry that i did not CTB earlier.I envy younger people who CTB when they are barely adults.
I am sorry that i am powerless and too isolated to punish some awful people and political/social systems that suck donkey dick.
I am sorry that i am not completely independent from society, living in the wild.
I am sorry to be born in this fucked up country.
I am sorry to see so many people with the head up their ass,uneducated to even comprehend why antinatalism makes total sense.
I am sorry to be born too late to explore the earth and too early to explore the universe.
I am sorry to exist in a world where taxes exist.
I am sorry to see the Western Civilization decline so rapidly before my eyes...
I am sorry to be born.

 

[TheCrow]

It's a very long story but she's the reason I have incurable cancer now. She misdiagnosed me and messed my body up. I can't even sue her because of the crappy country where I live. I hope she rots in the bowels of hell.

Omg! Unbelievable. Oh, I feel so sorry for you. That's awful. And to think she's able to get away with it, too! Ugh, just terrible all around. I wish I could wave a magic wand and fix you :(

 

[TheCrow]

I'm kind of a dick IRL, prickly and irritable all the time. I dislike that about myself but feel powerless to change it. I also hate that I've let myself get to the point I'm at now, hopelessly and helpless, and still receiving financial assistance from my family and girlfriend. It's very embarrassing to not have my life in basic order, and to still have my parents worrying about me as they approach retirement age. I have also been a real asshole to certain girls in my past. I used to have major problems conducting myself decently and controlling my mood, with outbursts of anger to go with it. I have also been pretty bad at times with infidelity and desiring other girls.

I am sorry for all these things.

I appreciate your honesty here. It can be hard to do. This is so much better than FB/IG where people post a picture of themselves from behind looking at a sunset with some dumbass quote as the caption.

 

[MsM3talGamer]

Omg! Unbelievable. Oh, I feel so sorry for you. That's awful. And to think she's able to get away with it, too! Ugh, just terrible all around. I wish I could wave a magic wand and fix you :(

Thank you. It's a lot to take on really. Wish I could fix myself too. :(

 

[TheCrow]

Thank you. It's a lot to take on really. Wish I could fix myself too. :(

I'm sure. Ugh. Needless to say, life is so unfair. xo

 

[Midnight]

@alot of people above: Don't be sorry for things you had no power over.

You can be sorry for certain actions in your lifetime... But not much else than that. (I know you can feel sorry for someone but that's a different matter)

 

[Midnight]

my own temptations leading to my own infidelity I paid for sex because I didn't want to be a virgin when I was 26

Why should be sorry for that and to whom? You didn't cheat on anyone ... You didn't force anybody or hurt somebody. Life gave you lemons and you took matters into your own hands without hurting anyone in the process. (If the sex worker wasn't forced to do that beyond her own will that is but you wouldn't have known either way)

 

[Pegasus]

Sorry I was born in this era of greed and selfishness.

 

[Pulpit2018]

Sorry I was born in this era of greed and selfishness.

So any era.

 

[Dead Meat]

I appreciate your posts here on ss.

Im sorry you feel that way.

I feel exactly the same way about myself.

Thank you for that it means a lot to me.
I'm really sorry that you have to feel this way to.
I just know I never should have been born.

 

[Broken]

Mention something that you are sorry for which is not related to CTBing or death.

I'm sorry i let you and myself down when it mattered the most. I'm sorry I didn't commit 110% when you needed me. Im sorry you saw all that potential in me and I ruined it. I'm sorry you stopped believing in me, I was scared because you were perfect and I wasn't. I'm not sorry that I'll love you until the end of time.

 

[Fallen bad23]

Getting f*cking fat. Now I have to work so hard to lose it all, and I don't think I can summon all the necessary will power to return to "fighting" weight. Damn.

Thanks for the opportunity to vent, @Fallen bad23

You are welcome :)

 

[Buddyluv19]

I will go first. I'm sorry for typing my thoughts here sometimes without putting much thought into them and realising that they may pose an identity threat.

Very wise. No reason to be sorry really.

 

[Buddyluv19]

I will go first. I'm sorry for typing my thoughts here sometimes without putting much thought into them and realising that they may pose an identity threat.

Very wise. No reason to be sorry really.

 

[Aesthler]

Sorry I never wanted to be a slave to the system like you were.

 

[Jane Doe]

Everything

 

[TheCrow]

Everything

I know, right?! I'm sorry you feel this way. It's hard to bear the weight of that.

 

[Watson]

I'm sorry for not being enough... not enough to save Watson (my dog), not enough to save friends, not enough to save my cousin, not enough to save myself.

 

[throwaway123]

Being born.

 

[TheCrow]

I'm sorry for not being enough... not enough to save Watson (my dog), not enough to save friends, not enough to save my cousin, not enough to save myself.

I'm so sorry. I have a chihuahua, too, so I understand how hard that would be. I'm sure you did all that you could.

You might like this clip of Eckhart Tolle talking to a man grieving about the loss of his dog:

 

[Worsethangarbage]

Same as doom...sorry for existing. Oxygen is wasted on me.

 

[SiArc]

I am sorry my CTB will fall just days before my best friend's birthday, the day after her daughter and brother arrive, and that I don't have in me to write any of the people who truly care about me letters before I go.

I tried to push my CTB to later but the stars aligned (literally and figuratively) for the date I picked to be it. I am so sorry my friend for perhaps ruining your birthday for years to come and definitely ruining this trip. At least you will have people around you to help you.

 

[HelensNepenthe]

I was forcefully taken out of a relationship because H* could no longer deal with my mental instability. H* was a loving woman who made it very clear early on in our relationship that she would never judge and would forgive me for some of my problems. She saw my moments of psychosis, my depressed moods where I wouldn't even bathe in a week and I look like a grease ball, and the whole nine yards that go with being a fucking depressed loser whose CTB is inevitably soon.

I knew there was something way to good about her when she made comments how she has forgiven people and that she would do the same for me. If in the case you read this H*, I'm deeply apologetic that you got to the point of blocking me from every entry in your life. The only way I've been able to keep in contact is through a close friend between us. I even wrote you a very long letter that night about our relationship and asked that you write back whenever you feel it is appropriate. You still haven't and I'm starting to think you're doing that purposely to ghost away from this fuck up.

Thanks for sharing those really intimate moments with me. For some reason, your comfort of always being around me was able to postpone my CTB. You talked me down that one night where I was contemplating taking my family member's gun.

 

[Tara2018]

I wanted to be popular because I was so afraid of loneliness , and because of that I had the worst friends/boyfriends...
I had no healthy coping mechanisms so I turned into an alcoholic, drug addict , sex addict maniac in an early age..
I was never able to show my true emotions towards others...
I cared to much about money.

 

[lookin4areason]

i'm sorry I can't be the person anyone would want me to be. i'm sorry that i'm not normal enough to want to live a life. i'm sorry i'm a loser for a child and a friend. i'm sorry I've let people down.