Discussion What are you feeling right now? don't think. just type.

[EmptyBottle]

Find it cool how the intervention show gives the addict a chance to choose their recovery (after their family talks about how their addiction affects them, and how choosing the rehab can fix it), that small sense of control might lead to better outcomes than if that wasn't there.

On a side note, amazed that @darksouls has more (not just slightly more) posts than me despite registering 1 month later than me.

 

[miles-away]

My life is eerily similar to Chris Chans without the sexual degeneracy.

 

[darksouls]

Find it cool how the intervention show gives the addict a chance to choose their recovery (after their family talks about how their addiction affects them, and how choosing the rehab can fix it), that small sense of control might lead to better outcomes than if that wasn't there.

On a side note, amazed that @darksouls has more (not just slightly more) posts than me despite registering 1 month later than me.

that is probably because I have a lot more rage in me than you do and need to vent more often

 

[EmptyBottle]

that is probably because I have a lot more rage in me than you do and need to vent more often

ah. I tend to post on what interests me sometimes, checking the forum sometimes, but checking other sites possibly more often (or vice versa depending on what's interesting at the moment).

My life is eerily similar to Chris Chans without the sexual degeneracy.

I've read some wiki about him, there are a lot of varied aspects to him, not sure which ones feel familiar to ur life.

 

[Dejected 55]

I am cold and alone and wondering if having someone here with me for a warm hug would feel nice. I've never had such a thing available to me, so it is only hypothetical.

 

[Lady_V]

A youtuber who had a miscarriage around the same time I did is pregnant again with a healthy baby. Wishing the best for her, but seeing that made me cry.

Idk why I'm so sad about it. I am glad I didn't give my ex a baby. He didn't deserve one, and going through that alone would have been too hard for me. Still, I think that might have been my only shot at being a mom.

So many complicated feelings.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I am cold and alone and wondering if having someone here with me for a warm hug would feel nice. I've never had such a thing available to me, so it is only hypothetical.

I feel your pain.
I need a hug so bad. I don't care if it's a woman or man. I just need a long hug.
John Cena or The Rock would be nice. I just want to feel safe for the first time in my life. No anxiety or fear.
I want to know what it's like.
Just to be clear, it's not about sex.... Not that I could stop them.
I just want to feel human.

 

[darksouls]

when I was a child my biological sister, who is 12 years older than me, told me that I am mentally ill because I am against animal testing

 

[Manaaja]

Absolutely awful shit day to Shitland, the only place in the world where killing women, girls, daughters, wives, real males and AFAB people is not only legal but celebrated and enforced!

Femicide rates would drop by 99% if Shitland didn't exist.

Btw, Russia is controlled by Shitland. Ever wondered why they attacked Ukraine instead of Finland? Because Russia is a Finnish puppet. If you want to stop the war, just stop Finland.

Finns love nothing more than senseless violence and wars.

Fucking Ted Bundy landia. I think I should start calling Shitland Ted Bundy landia. Yeah, that's something. Ted Bundy? More like Finnish Finn.

I hate how I have to be here hating Shitland.

Do you ever think I speak like a politician? Nah that can't be. There are no politicians. Only Finns.

Human lives and rights are more important than Finland

 

[Dejected 55]

A general malaise around me today. Wondering when the next big piece of my life will break and send me into the next spiral iteration. There is no such thing as good news to me anymore. It's always bad news of one form or another, to one degree or another. I'm sad and alone and miserable all the time. I eat and sleep and kill time however I can most days. I have nothing good going on ever. I have no chance to be anything but alone. I wish I had another method ready to go, but I don't. I just have to keep suffering.

 

[Bowerbird]

Im a weird little freak nobody understands. I am lazy, contribute nothing to society and sit around on my technological devices all day. Nobody understands me when I communicate and everyone thinks im stupid so i dont even bother talking much. I get told im too weird or stupid or nobody understands.. but then im also too quiet. Im a grown adult but people still mistake me for a kid


He is literally just like me

I feel like a parasite/burden taking up resources and space that could go to someone much more deserving. i think my parents hate me

 

[R-7]

Sometimes it feels like I've been dead inside for a long time and I'm just keeping up the charade of who I once was while hoping for the rest of me to catch up.

I distract myself with fun things and I *do* enjoy myself, very much so sometimes. When those things end however? I'm back to feeling like this.

I am so tired. </3

 

[EmptyBottle]

Cool, I finally I swapped the smart room thermometer (tldr)

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server desk arduino thermometer is finally swapped when I accidentally bumped it, stopping measurement (I planned on swapping whenever it was interrupted, waited over a month for the swap). Now, I have temperature readings that align with the bookrack thermometer used for dream logs and casual checking of room temp.

I connected the display, and there was a few rounds of wire troubleshooting, both display data and display power. Once I eventually got it to display, I removed the serial code (coz that would not work when running off USB power only), and ran it for over 2 hours without issue, before I put the system away.

PS: only around 45 mins was on battery, coz i wanted the laptop charged.

 

[corpse]

I still can't believe what happened last night. I wish it was just a nightmare.

 

[Lady_V]

I can't believe you refused to take your mental health meds because they made you unable to masturbate to your femboy porn every day. YOU WERE SUCH A FUCKING JOKE!

 

[itsgone2]

I need to step back into my old life for a bit. It is such a charade. A nightmare. Afterward I'll be near a gun store. I've gone in once. Familiar with it now. Different to fire some rounds. Make a purchase. Do the deed. It's difficult but we need to do difficult things. I certainly can't do this shit forever.

 

[darksouls]

tense and stressed

 

[somethingisntreal]

I hate being around people but I also hate feeling lonely I need to be with someone so bad but I hate them all

 

[Dejected 55]

Crippling loneliness makes me unable and unwanting to do anything at all. Even little things around the house seem like huge insurmountable things. Then I have actual important things I should be thinking about, planning for, trying to do... but my world will crumble and fall apart around me and there still will not be any motivation to do anything. I have no reason to be here, no reason to want to be here, and the only thing that would change if I go away is that I wouldn't be here. No one would notice or be bothered or miss me. I am completely unimportant to everyone and I only ever really needed to matter to someone... just one person... and she didn't care, no one has ever cared. Why am I here? I serve no purpose at all, nothing I say or do matters at all, even increasingly I do not matter to myself.

 

[somethingisntreal]

I just want to look normal

 

[Lady_V]

I feel good today. I haven't had a good day since June. I am about to enter my 3rd week of being sober and I got over a very stressful hump at my job. I am going to be productive today.

 

[Dejected 55]

Lethargic malaise... since sometimes yesterday. Don't want to do anything, don't want to move, don't want to be awake. I was in bed about 12 hours from last night until this afternoon and only got up once I knew I wasn't really able to sleep anymore. I don't want to be anything anymore. I want to be nothingness. I feel only pain and loneliness. There is no reason for me to exist. There is no reason for me to want to exist. I want to be gone, but I have no way out. I don't know what to do anymore.

 

[Unbearable Mr. Bear]

I want the world to watch me play a videogame and love me for it.

 

[Grog]

Some people are really annoying. Some people despise me for simply having an alternate opinion.
I'm tired of having to mask for people who aren't going to like me anyway.
I can only be me.

 

[4colliez]

Things are actually going really well right now so I don't understand why I still feel empty and exhausted. I feel guilty for those feelings still being in the back of my mind constantly. I'm not being productive enough or enjoying the small things the way I should

 

[Alcoholic Teletubby]

Whelp, looks like they caught the guy from that recent beheading vid that was going around.

 

[Liebestod]

Emotionless and detached

 

[Bitch With An Apple]

Ha I checked an essay grade I was dreading
Turned out I was essentially graded down for "talking weird", again
Sorry I naturally use big words, it isn't fucking posturing
Speaking in a different way is what's unnatural to me, fuck off

I hate how much people care about stupid shit when content should always matter more than form

 

[Dejected 55]

Generally disillusioned and frustrated with society as a whole. People go out of their way to harm others and think nothing of it. There is nothing redeeming in the world to make it worth wanting to live even if I didn't have my own specific problems to work through.

 

[starryend]

its exhausting hearing people with their cliche "It'll get better!" like they have any idea or care at all.