Discussion What are you feeling right now? don't think. just type.

[Spite]

Incredibly lonely. Angry and miserable thinking about my future. The longer I continue, it's only going to get worse.

 

[Rahat]

Everyday I realize how most people i have known in the past have moved so ahead in life. I am wayy too behind and i dont see myself coming out of this rut.

 

[disgustedbyhumanity]

i honestly wish my abusers, bullies and those who betrayed me get their karma

 

[Cavalcade]

I've relapsed harder into my eating disorder than I ever have before in my life, and frankly, it's exhausting.

 

[mars2027]

Birthday, because "happy" doesn't really apply. It's a meaningful number I'm turning, though… and I guess I'll stay that age for eternity. Let's go 27 Club yay! Anyways, since I'll spend most of the day sleeping I don't think I'll have to mask too much. Even getting just a few calls feels exhausting.

 

[violetforever]

im so lonely and talk to nobody (how surprising since i have no actual friends) to the point where my phone is basically useless and its still more than half way charged at the end of the day from how little i use it since i have absolutely no notifications to check, even on here its barely any. its sad how much im still rotting my life away alone in my room. why is it so hard to form connections with people beyond acquaintances and classmates? i feel like both me and the limited amount of people i encounter are closed off to progressing beyond that or something. i just have literally nobody in my personal life and im not sure i ever will. its affecting me in a way that cant be ignored now. theres no use in anything if im alone. no reason to buy nice things, watch or read stuff, and even form thoughts if i have no one to share it with. i hate how much i require human interaction now. i feel like attending school gave me an idea of all the human interaction i was missing out on over the years and now i cant deny how much i really do need it.

 

[Manaaja]

There's corn. There's porn. There's pop corn. But there's no pop porn.

 

[violetforever]

im so terribly bored. what is there even to do everyday? i feel like theres nothing to do and i lack any motivation. i feel so lost after i wake up and finish doing the necessary and usual things like showering, brushing my teeth, eating and texting my friend. i just sit and wait for time to pass by until its time to sleep and do it all over again. i dont see the point in doing anything. im so uninterested in my own existence. why does nothing and no one fulfill me? why cant i function normally? i wish anything had a meaningful effect on me. i feel so detached. i have a calmer and overall better living situation and im still not happy. i dont know what it will take. there is something so wrong with me. i feel like crying out of frustration from not being able to feel anything towards life right now. is this just derealization?

 

[nitrogenous]

I don't know, I hate myself. Today has been horrible. Actually not just today, this week, this month, this year, this life. Life keeps on getting worse and worse. Everything that I thought was a glimmer of hope turns out to be false. Everything that I thought could be my protective factor, turns out to be my greatest enemies. Even medical professionals have given up on me. And when they are stuck, they would tell me that it's my life anyways so I'm the one in control. That as an adult, I have the option to end my life. Gosh, if only it's that easy. I don't know what to do anymore. I hate everything and everyone, including myself. Why am I still alive and breathing? Why am I such a failure? Why can't I just die.

 

[Manaaja]

Sexless species: zero violence, rape, murder or abuse against kids.

Female-only species: zero violence, rape, murder or abuse against kids

Hermaphrodite species: zero violence, rape, murder, or abuse against kids.

Castrated males: zero violence, rape, murder, or abuse against kids.

Anti-castration species: total genocide, total rape culture, nothing but abuse against kids.