waiting to get sick

[meioalguem]

I may not even be thinking about ctb, but I always think about myself getting sick and dying. I wanted this to happen

 

[Manaaja]

When I was a kid I wanted to always be sick so I could skip school. I also felt mentally much better when I was sick. There were times when I wished I could be sick and die, but I don't want to suffer so either the sickness should be very quick (instant, minutes, hours, a few days max) or then I want another method.

 

[Smart No More]

It would be nice if it was out of our hands and all the guilt of ctb would be taken away as a result. Also SI. It would make things so muxh simpler if it could happen quickly.

 

[FuneralCry]

It is difficult to ctb as we are programmed to survive. It requires a lot of courage to exit this world and the society takes away the peaceful methods. However a part of me wants to die on my own terms, at a time of my own choosing. I want euthanasia and it is what I deserve. I think one of the worst things about being alive is the fact that there is health conditions that can torture us for decades without killing us. The human body is a horrible thing. In my case, it is unlikely that I will die from illness anytime soon so I will have to ctb.

 

[Rational man]

I didn't want to be sick. I loved living but disease has other plans. In may case, a slow death, horribly. Trouble is, we dont imagine it happening until it happens. Thats why I have legal plans to.die in th pipe line, and also plan B.

 

[Chockles]

Getting sick doesn't mean dying though. Only a few select terminal illnesses for that. I've been physically 'sick all my life pain has been quite bad a decade & intolerance 10 months now. Feel like death but nerve & muscle damage doesn't kill you. My heart & liver according to the bloods are doing fine.