Venting Vent/ my dog/ wait for MAID or Fent

[ChocolateCroissant]

My 14 year old dog died. The pain wretches at me. I want to pet her again so badly and watch her run around and be silly and play peekaboo with her. It hurts so much.

I developed PCOS directly after the VX. My ovaries are in constant pain and I'm constantly bleeding. Also My spine is broken and in constant pain. I have had anxiety all day everyday for about 14(?) years. My brain is eroded. I can't do anything I want to do. I am dead. I have no quality of life. I feel like I have locked in syndrome but can walk around (with pain). I'm only 26.

My precious snowball is gone. My Angel. I think it's time to go be with her now and stop trying to get better. It was doomed from the start.

I wish so much I could have helped humanity better in my time here.

I am going to try and get Fentanyl since everyone seems to be dropping dead from it.

I'm so worried it won't be real or diluted(?).

MAID may become legal where I live next year. Should I suffer the pain of another year and hope MAID successfully becomes legal for mental illness?

What would you do?

I just don't want to continue to deteriorate and be in such suffering and I want to be with my dog. I miss her so much. I miss her so so so so so much. I think I could keep grasping at the little shreds of delusional hope for life if she were here.

I'm suffering so badly

Lastly, I hate to say such a thing towards a group of people but I am so frustrated and I may never get to vocally say it again

Fuck the selfish pro-lifers.

Sorry to say that but.. I really want that off my chest.

 

[Medicmedic72]

You'd need a lot of fent and you would need to be able to convert it to something you can inject, then inject it in the proper spot. There's homework to be done.
Conversely, the fent is cheap and easy to make, plus, if it's your first purchase they may give you the uncut stuff to lure you back. So many people carry narcan now that you should strongly think through location.

 

[Getmeouttaherenow]

My 14 year old dog died. The pain wretches at me. I want to pet her again so badly and watch her run around and be silly and play peekaboo with her. It hurts so much.

I developed PCOS directly after the VX. My ovaries are in constant pain and I'm constantly bleeding. Also My spine is broken and in constant pain. I have had anxiety all day everyday for about 14(?) years. My brain is eroded. I can't do anything I want to do. I am dead. I have no quality of life. I feel like I have locked in syndrome but can walk around (with pain). I'm only 26.

My precious snowball is gone. My Angel. I think it's time to go be with her now and stop trying to get better. It was doomed from the start.

I wish so much I could have helped humanity better in my time here.

I am going to try and get Fentanyl since everyone seems to be dropping dead from it.

I'm so worried it won't be real or diluted(?).

MAID may become legal where I live next year. Should I suffer the pain of another year and hope MAID successfully becomes legal for mental illness?

What would you do?

I just don't want to continue to deteriorate and be in such suffering and I want to be with my dog. I miss her so much. I miss her so so so so so much. I think I could keep grasping at the little shreds of delusional hope for life if she were here.

I'm suffering so badly

Lastly, I hate to say such a thing towards a group of people but I am so frustrated and I may never get to vocally say it again

Fuck the selfish pro-lifers.

Sorry to say that but.. I really want that off my chest.

Thinking about fent or carfentanil as well. But random dealers on whisper will prob just give me cut coke. Fml

 

[Getmeouttaherenow]

You'd need a lot of fent and you would need to be able to convert it to something you can inject, then inject it in the proper spot. There's homework to be done.
Conversely, the fent is cheap and easy to make, plus, if it's your first purchase they may give you the uncut stuff to lure you back. So many people carry narcan now that you should strongly think through location.

Doesn't take much from what I've read. A gram I would guess for the average person, and never read anything about needing to inject

 

[Cathy Ames]

I'm so sorry for your loss.

 

[befree]

It´s recommended to use Fentanyl patches with Oxycodon.

Oxycodon & Fentanyl guide English.pdf - AnonFiles

anonfiles.com

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you suffer so unbearably. It sounds really awful what you have to endure, and I can imagine that it must be so painful losing a pet. This life really is so unfair, and I also hate pro lifers as it is cruel how they want to deny people the option of a peaceful exit. I hope that you find relief from your pain in whatever you decide to do.

 

[Tortured Existence]

You'd need a lot of fent and you would need to be able to convert it to something you can inject, then inject it in the proper spot. There's homework to be done.
Conversely, the fent is cheap and easy to make, plus, if it's your first purchase they may give you the uncut stuff to lure you back. So many people carry narcan now that you should strongly think through location.

It can be smoked, snorted or injected. With no tolerance, any of those ways could easily kill the first time if it's the real stuff.

My 14 year old dog died. The pain wretches at me. I want to pet her again so badly and watch her run around and be silly and play peekaboo with her. It hurts so much.

I developed PCOS directly after the VX. My ovaries are in constant pain and I'm constantly bleeding. Also My spine is broken and in constant pain. I have had anxiety all day everyday for about 14(?) years. My brain is eroded. I can't do anything I want to do. I am dead. I have no quality of life. I feel like I have locked in syndrome but can walk around (with pain). I'm only 26.

My precious snowball is gone. My Angel. I think it's time to go be with her now and stop trying to get better. It was doomed from the start.

I wish so much I could have helped humanity better in my time here.

I am going to try and get Fentanyl since everyone seems to be dropping dead from it.

I'm so worried it won't be real or diluted(?).

MAID may become legal where I live next year. Should I suffer the pain of another year and hope MAID successfully becomes legal for mental illness?

What would you do?

I just don't want to continue to deteriorate and be in such suffering and I want to be with my dog. I miss her so much. I miss her so so so so so much. I think I could keep grasping at the little shreds of delusional hope for life if she were here.

I'm suffering so badly

Lastly, I hate to say such a thing towards a group of people but I am so frustrated and I may never get to vocally say it again

Fuck the selfish pro-lifers.

Sorry to say that but.. I really want that off my chest.

I'm SO sorry about the loss of your baby! I've experienced it too many times in my life (I'm more than twice your age) and never has it gotten easier.

Why do you need to wait for MAID to become legal for mental illness when you suffer immensely with long-time severe physical pain?

 

[Medicmedic72]

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It´s recommended to use Fentanyl patches with Oxycodon.

https://anonfiles.com/dfM1I2lcye/Oxycodon_Fentanyl_guide_English_pdf[/

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Agreed, however, I have only seen actual lethal overdoses with injecting.