Useless retard ranting

[The Unanswered Q]

Can blame autism and mental illness all I want, at the end of the day everything that's ever gone wrong in my life is my own fault. Could have had a decent life if I wasn't such a coward, if I didn't run from everything, and give up whenever things got hard. It's now at the point I don't think I can ever get better, I'm a high school dropout NEET with no skills. Been isolated for so long that I can barely talk, whenever I try to it just comes out as retarded unintelligible mumbling. Gotten significantly dumber as well, struggle to do basic addition, have to read through something multiple times to actually comprehend what I just read. It's all my fault, if I wasn't such a coward I'd been fine now. Want to skin myself, gouge my eyes out, cut my fingers off, then set myself on fire.

 

[Andrew10]

I wish I had you by my side to give you a hug man, reading this broke my heart

 

[Bad Ending]

You are not alone, I feel the same

 

[SchizoPolyGymnast]

Can blame autism and mental illness all I want, at the end of the day everything that's ever gone wrong in my life is my own fault. Could have had a decent life if I wasn't such a coward, if I didn't run from everything, and give up whenever things got hard. It's now at the point I don't think I can ever get better, I'm a high school dropout NEET with no skills. Been isolated for so long that I can barely talk, whenever I try to it just comes out as retarded unintelligible mumbling. Gotten significantly dumber as well, struggle to do basic addition, have to read through something multiple times to actually comprehend what I just read. It's all my fault, if I wasn't such a coward I'd been fine now. Want to skin myself, gouge my eyes out, cut my fingers off, then set myself on fire.

Forgive the stupid question but...can you pinpoint what you are afraid of?

 

[Apathy79]

Want to skin myself, gouge my eyes out, cut my fingers off, then set myself on fire.

This sounds painful