Unbearable Borderline Disorder

[miserableforever]

Anyone here living with severe Borderline that no one knows about or understands?
I know it will be my reason to CTB when I'm ready. It's been so many years like this and every day I feel I just live so others don't have to feel bad/guilty when I'm gone.

 

[WornOutLife]

Bipolar disorder type I here.
I know it's not the same but it's really annoying to have either hellish days and then suddenly the best day of your life.

I'm kinda more stable now thanks to my meds but damn, it's certainly difficult!

Hope you can deal with your borderline disorder and get better somehow!!

Hugs,

Matt

 

[Catlovergirl]

Anyone here living with severe Borderline that no one knows about or understands?
I know it will be my reason to CTB when I'm ready. It's been so many years like this and every day I feel I just live so others don't have to feel bad/guilty when I'm gone.

Hay u, I've ben diagnosed Borderline 6 years ago when I ended up in hospital for a sucide attempt in 2015 for just about a week and half and to me it's pointless as lol, I was discharged and 2 months down the line my BPD shit returns as there is only therapy for it but no meds, now u can have other comorbidities like depression, anxiety, ocd, etc..... I'm in therapy right now but I'm back on this site to get the detailed info on what I can start buying to SN because u and me both know how no words can explain how horrible it is to have this personality disorder. Check this out i screenshotted today

Hay u, I've ben diagnosed Borderline 6 years ago when I ended up in hospital for a sucide attempt in 2015 for just about a week and half and to me it's pointless as lol, I was discharged and 2 months down the line my BPD shit returns as there is only therapy for it but no meds, now u can have other comorbidities like depression, anxiety, ocd, etc..... I'm in therapy right now but I'm back on this site to get the detailed info on what I can start buying to SN because u and me both know how no words can explain how horrible it is to have this personality disorder. Check this out i screenshotted today

 

[miserableforever]

Hay u, I've ben diagnosed Borderline 6 years ago when I ended up in hospital for a sucide attempt in 2015 for just about a week and half and to me it's pointless as lol, I was discharged and 2 months down the line my BPD shit returns as there is only therapy for it but no meds, now u can have other comorbidities like depression, anxiety, ocd, etc..... I'm in therapy right now but I'm back on this site to get the detailed info on what I can start buying to SN because u and me both know how no words can explain how horrible it is to have this personality disorder. Check this out i screenshotted today

Thanks for sharing all that info. It's just ugh, I try to get better and I feel ok for a few hours, but then something actually ridiculously insignificant throws me off to the point where I start crying or have to stay away from everyone at home. On the outside I seem to be doing great. People want to be my friend cause I'm considered attractive even though I live in sweatpants due to perceiving myself as hideous. A long time ago I read about Borderline but brushed it off. Then came the divorce from an abusing husband. He took all my savings cause I left him and I had to start over. At this point I'm running out of steam. And yeah I know, Borderline is the worst type of illness to have. Mine comes with OCD, body dysmorphia and constant anxiety. Took me 3 days to capture a picture of myself on my phone for my work profile cause I felt 'ugly' . It's like every breath takes sooo much energy that I wake up tired every morning.

 

[hellispink]

I also have bpd. I am beyond tired of being here because it is a roller coaster every time. I understand you .