So I tried to OD two days ago. I was ready it's something I have been thinking about for a long time. I prepared a bottle of water filled it at about 1/10 for the pills to melt in it. Pills 
looked like this so all I had was to open em and add the powder in the bottle. I had about three pallet. So approximately I took 30 tablets. The drink was nasty af. It took me 15 mins to drink It. As I finished I felt high but a different type of high I Cannot explain. I put netrflix on before hand and was scrolling on my phone laying down . What I felt : if I moved to much I felt like I was Passing out. Quick heart beat. That's it. I was expecting to pass out. But no nothing happened aftrrr 1 hour of wait I felt less high and felt like I was being myself again no more fast heartbeat or weird feeling. I just fell asleep and woke up the next day disappointed like why I'm i still alive ?? Anyways, I threw up everything I hadn't eaten day before so it was just yellow liquid. I threw up like 7 times and managed to go outside for a date that I wasn't sure I'd make but I did it like as if nothing happened. Just to say im disappointed it wasn't my time. I am trying to find another way of ending it because I can't deal with this life no more I am not a machine and I never asked to be here.
looked like this so all I had was to open em and add the powder in the bottle. I had about three pallet. So approximately I took 30 tablets. The drink was nasty af. It took me 15 mins to drink It. As I finished I felt high but a different type of high I Cannot explain. I put netrflix on before hand and was scrolling on my phone laying down . What I felt : if I moved to much I felt like I was Passing out. Quick heart beat. That's it. I was expecting to pass out. But no nothing happened aftrrr 1 hour of wait I felt less high and felt like I was being myself again no more fast heartbeat or weird feeling. I just fell asleep and woke up the next day disappointed like why I'm i still alive ?? Anyways, I threw up everything I hadn't eaten day before so it was just yellow liquid. I threw up like 7 times and managed to go outside for a date that I wasn't sure I'd make but I did it like as if nothing happened. Just to say im disappointed it wasn't my time. I am trying to find another way of ending it because I can't deal with this life no more I am not a machine and I never asked to be here.
