Train

[mentalhealthfighter]

I'm suffering from schizophrenia, I have 'mystical' experiences which make me very frightened. I also experience voices all the time.

I want to CTB by train as I do not have any other option at my disposal. I would have to walk away from my rehab centre and go find the metro and then the train. I'm serious about it because I can't live with my condition.

 

[jodes2]

It's difficult, you have to make sure it's a fast train and loitering around waiting could attract attention after some time

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

Be sure to get your neck across the track for as fast and sure a death as possible.

My father survived a train [accidentally] going over him because he was in the middle of the tracks and it went clear over without severing any body parts.

 

[again_noidea]

What frightens you in your "mystical" experiences? no matter what you do, it is always good to be normally dressed etc, to not cause any attention from other people.

 

[mentalhealthfighter]

What frightens you in your "mystical" experiences? no matter what you do, it is always good to be normally dressed etc, to not cause any attention from other people.

The voices get really noticeable and my environment reshapes itself

 

[MessedUp.]

I'm suffering from schizophrenia, I have 'mystical' experiences which make me very frightened. I also experience voices all the time.

I want to CTB by train as I do not have any other option at my disposal. I would have to walk away from my rehab centre and go find the metro and then the train. I'm serious about it because I can't live with my condition.

Im sorry that you have to live with that, i dont have it so i will never fully understand what your going through but what i do understand is that its making life hard, if you wanna go by train then you have to go far away from the railroad crossing cause the train wont be at his fullest speed yet there (but ig you were already aware of that) and there is a chance you will survive ofc and thats gonna be painfull ig, if you wanna talk im here:)

 

[FuneralCry]

That does sound really awful what you have to endure. It's horrible how life can torture people in so many ways. I'm sorry that life brought you to this point and I understand having limited options to ctb. In an ideal world we would all be able to just exit peacefully. I hope that you find freedom from your suffering.

 

[sunburst]

On yt theres interesting interview with Itzak Bentov. Hi is viewing schizophrenia in different way. Hope it's help.
I'm also considering train. Because I can't even organise equipment for exit bag. There is no fast trains in my country. I'll have to travel to some civilisation.

 

[Tiberius85]

Please don't do train. Suicide is your own personal choice. But please don't pull an innocent person into it, which you inevitably do with the train driver who is going to be traumatised for the rest of his life.

 

[again_noidea]

The voices get really noticeable and my environment reshapes itself

i heard voices for a some time, but they were not intrusive and appeared only in certain situations and they went away when i tried to locate them. Once i heard the "voice of a demon", that was disturbing and frightening. it must be brutal to hear such strong voices and to be unable to shake them off. The reshaping of the environment in unpleasant and horrifying ways must be extremely frightening and stressful. I wish you all the best, I hope you can resolve your situation without too much trouble.

 

[Hollowillow]

I'm suffering from schizophrenia, I have 'mystical' experiences which make me very frightened. I also experience voices all the time.

I want to CTB by train as I do not have any other option at my disposal. I would have to walk away from my rehab centre and go find the metro and then the train. I'm serious about it because I can't live with my condition.

I too thought of taking the train. I read to choose a blind spot (not sure what it is, a turn and a bush?) And put my neck to be decapitated. A girl lied down feet first, lost her legs.

Psychiatry & medicine have no cure. Allow me to share options.

B vitamins deficiency CAUSE skizophrenia. Hypoglycemia too (especially crashing after a shufar high, stuff with vitamin c helps stabilize, b burns energy), poisons (like drugs, you said rehab? If it's to quit drugs, cool, try to find a better coming mechanism.) Allergies or intolerances.

We have 3 brains. Emotional, rational, primal. They ralk in the sub conscious. When I had anemia, I couldn't make enough blood. I had a voice telling me to kill people & eat cats. Steaks are probably tastier. I miss the voice telling me how to solve problems. Lost it after a car hit my rational brain... Maybe you have brain damage too. Vitamin B improved my ball of nerves...

You can try. But if you want to cbd, let's talk about trains! I'm tired of drug post that I can't afford or figure out how to buy... Maybe if we tie our neck to the rail?

It's difficult, you have to make sure it's a fast train and loitering around waiting could attract attention after some time

How fast? How do I know?

The voices get really noticeable and my environment reshapes itself

Example? I can hallucinate bugs, I need to look twice. My eyes can't focus and keep shifting focus back & forth, so stuff seem to move

Please don't do train. Suicide is your own personal choice. But please don't pull an innocent person into it, which you inevitably do with the train driver who is going to be traumatised for the rest of his life.

I read that they quit. I wish to have a note saying "thank you for freeing me from sonething worse. It was my choice. Don't feel bad. I'm just a bug in a windshield. I made sure you wouldn't notice me"

 

[SexyIncél]

If I were to die by train, maybe I'd practice quickly getting into position? (Whatever the best position is)

Because it's performance; and performers (like magicians & musicians) train far more than they perform. A 10 second magic trick could take days/months to practice. And your death is far more important to get right

(It really sucks — many of us live alone, and are doomed to die alone, unhelped)

Also, I suspect that some trains slow down when near platforms. If so, I might get a black or stone-camouflaged blanket, and hide far from platforms